The absurdity of life... zindagi ke maah aayne

I'm editing this blog after 2 years ...as I want to speak something more and something important to me....

The moment which engulfs my life, when I realised everyone tries to sell anything anywhere in any way and somehow created a sense of completeness in this unfinished compartment of incomplete life. The thoughts which even I consider them myself are even part of something that has been sold to me. I never get the things which have grown out of me...it's a shame. 

This illusionary world always tries to award people with success when they get a false sense of completeness. खा लो ये पान मसाला और दुनिया आपकी। लगा लो इस सेंट को, पहन लो ये, अरे भाई नहीं चाहिए।

The incomplete yet complete life and the complete yet incomplete life are two dimensions to be lived in. The search for purpose, love, human and emotions are locked in a box and whose keys have been lost miles away on an unknown island. The box is the brain and the keys are the heart .

Things will never make sense, neither human nor emotions. It is the way of life in which life operates itself but somehow people try to make some sense or some fall for complete nothingness as nihilism ...but life isn't extreme it's that mid way...in which the water just flows...flows...flows and so...

Zindagi na hi safar h aur na hi suffer ...ye bas zindagi h .

# Edit

Zindagi main kuch na kuch chalta rehta hai...kabhi dukh , kabhi pareshani, kabhi khusi kabhi kisi ka gam, kabhi apno ki pareshani, kabhi apni pareshani...kabhi physical health, kabhi mental health...

So the key is dont take one thing so seriously that it breaks this life rhythm... instead do that one thing with them in the rhythm...if you take everything seriously then you will not take single thing seriously..which is good actually....and that's how you try to do something if you want to...since life jitni multidimensional kuch bhi nhi...

There is no such thing as perfection...and it will be not...but despite the imperfections.. imperfect day... imperfect mood .... Imperfect time...do it. There will be never perfect day of perfect mood or perfect time .Even here I'm remembering Charles bukowski poem...don't do it..

#  pain and work 

everyday there will be some things that give me pain, whether it is past memories, present situations or future tension ...past regrets, present loneliness, or kisi ki yaad or break up, losing a friendship or whatever could be possible, and its common in every person life , whether he is poor , rich , younger or older , lowly status or high profile ...its same across the people ...its the very human thing ...and there will be pain...as long there is life 

so what to do bro, accept it and believe me with time it started to fade ...and work despite all of that and thats mental toughness in its purest form ...and believe me , have faith in it and it will work out surely one day.

why to do so ; why i have to do this ; because you have basically two options...

1.you have to deal with these daily problems across your life...there is nothing that you can do to solve them...because you cant waste time...your time is crucial...you accept these pain and try to distract yourself ...but in long run...your problems will be solved but you got nothing in your hands. 

2.you accept these problems , it hurts you , it give you pain...you endure all that pain ...and still work and still study...and believe me pain will fade away....these problems will no longer hurts you with same intensity as they are in that moment...but at end you will end up with something in hands despite these pain...and believe me its too much tough to study with this pain but "fortune favours the brave" and thats the bravery in purest form ...and its too much tough and believe me , all people suffered this but the one who cleared despite these challenges is to walk with pain.

#Past 

Even I think about my past, that in past I was perfect, perfect days of just studying...but I can counter it on many levels 

: look at this blog since starting..there were no days such as perfection days of just studying...I was always engaged in something or other in any given point of time in my life. There were still days of sadness, madness and problems that feel worst.

: as person grows with time ,  the things on him as responsibility also grows but this is somewhat facade...this is not true rather its our bias regarding past ..that in past we were always best...we can't see the new things coming in our life ...rather we just focus on old things that get slowly away...and that our biasness 

Even too much relax leads to stress ...it's like paradox. That's why....do it even for 15 min. If your mood tells you so... regarding study

There is song , whose lyrics written by Anand Bakshi...goes something like ... duniya main jeena hai toh kaam kar pyaare...

Do the work ...if you want to do ...even for 15 min....forget time and study...if you want to ....   Do it 

If you really want to study, forget everything that bothers regarding study as time you give etc. etc... ...and then just study 

Eg

If I'm feeling sad...okay let it process for sometime...then I will study...and then study..

If something happens to family members...I shall assist them..but even when I got 15 min. I study..

Time does not matter ...if you want to do ..do it...and that's actually in real life is tough 

You may be not able to study for long hours...you may be not  efficient...but you become effective 

But effectiveness beats efficiency 

And one more thing....life has no final answer...no such conclusion..kuch na kuch kabhi na kabhi chalta hi rehta hai 

Despite all these things...try to complete targets...no matter how small thay are....

#have faith in this and it will work 💯