Mere kadhi chawal

Can't do anything about dukha You can't solve the pain neither you can escape the pain Not my type so  ? ... Mujhe insecurity dedegi wo... I will be fucking insecure... Kyunki khaali dimaag shaitan ka ghar... ...nhi chahiye fir  Wo aise hi busy rehti hai  Mere liye waqt nhi nikal paati wo Toh mere liye nhi bani hai wo ... Jo mere liye waqt na nikal paaye matlab she is not interested in me  And showing no feelings towards me  ...let her focus on her career  ... Ships are safe at the harbour...but they are not mean to be stay them forever...they are built to cross the violent sea.. So lets see...where things go with muskan otherwise baithe raho kisi ke intezaar main...ya fir himmat karo cheezein karne ki Aur sirf sochne se kuch nhi hota....take the action... remember pull paar karne se nadi paar nhi hoti...kuch paar nhi hota ndi main bina utare... Agar kuch bura hota hai...toh bhi we will see.. I am not here to ignore red flags... Aur agar kuch accha hota hai...

 Mann nhi lagta logon main  Ek do dost hi h...aur bass family Mehfeelon main ab jee nhi lagta ... Kaam karo bahut saara Paisa kamao.. Taaki khud ko rule kar paao.... Aur logon ke hisaab se rule na ho pao... Especially society. ... Khair I'm happy...even kisi se baat karne ka Mann bhi nhi hota It's not im done with people...but they are not my types. Toh zaruratein puri karo ...unki responsibility samjho and have a sense of self worth 

रख ले मुझे तेरा मन हो तो ढक ले मुझे तेरा मन हो तो अगर हूँ नापसंद तो कर देना दूर एक ही बार में तेरा मन हो तो दिल के बाज़ार में लगा कीमत दिखूँगा बेशकीमती तेरा मन हो तो और न लगा दाम मेरे तेरे दिल में दिखूँगा बेज़ार तेरा मन हो तो मैं तो कुछ नहीं कहता अब तुझसे तू ही बोल कुछ मुझसे तेरा मन हो तो मैं समझता हूँ तेरा भी डर तू चल दे डर से आगे तेरा मन हो तो और तू चाहती है परखना मुझे तो बिल्कुल परख तेरा मन हो तो

I'm removing the cap of " intentionally not studying"...wrt time

there are multiple things that carry on day to day basis, even if you are preparing for cse. you can't avoid them...you can go anywhere in the world but they won't leave you.. even after clearing cse, they won't leave you ..you have to make peace with them but some says it is not possible for them, then they are little either not fully self aware or they have not aware of their limits or they have suppressed their limits  so what to do give them time, write them down and do single work with full focus and if you get bored change it. and you can also take a good rest from all of them from once in a while if you got tired...its that easy ... and it kinda works for me . as i am able to study  ..... If your approach helps you: come back to your desk regularly finish what you start (at least most of the time) not burn out every 10 days then it’s working. If instead you notice: constant task switching with little depth using “rest” as an escape feeling busy but n...

It's time to act, not to strategise anything anymore.

Don't be afraid of commiting mistakes for the sake of action  Apologise and accept the mistakes you commit Don't be silly around to just commit same mistakes again and again ....don't commit same mistake twice. And there will be lot of mistakes and you will learn a lot.. Try to reduce chances of mistakes and still it will occur and that's the human nature.

If you are feeling drowsy...in noon...set a 15 min. Timer and sleep and the wakes up and complete the task. take a coffee 15 min. before nap ... take nap on chair ..

पाने के लिए कुछ, छोड़ने की कोशिश करें हम पहुँचने के लिए कहीं, कहीं से निकलने की कोशिश करें हम ना पैसा है, ना वक्त है अपने पास ऐसी गरीबी में जज़्बातों का क्या करें हम कोई कैसे अपनाएगा इस गरीब शख़्स को इस अंधी दौड़ में सिर्फ जज़्बातों के साथ खड़े हम हर लड़की को चाहिए अमीर और हर वक्त का साथ ये तन्हा, व्यस्त, गरीब… कहाँ जाकर मरें हम खैर, ये उम्मीद छूटी नहीं है अभी ऐसे कई ज़ख्म पहले भी भरे हम आएगा वो एक दिन, जिस दिन की तलाश है उसी तलाश में दिन-रात काम करें हम और कितनी भी लंबी हो कतार मेरे सपनों की चाहे आख़िरी हो जगह हमारी, फिर भी खड़े हम                                                                – शिनाख्त 

Power is very important to change my family.. For me power is the real source... And I will build power... otherwise I will be a poet. Power build karo dheere dheere...ye koi nhi btata.. Warna sirf feel karne wale aur likhne wale ban jaoge... Apni marzi ke malik nhi ho paoge ... Kitne philosophers aur poets aaye aur gye...but ek hitler aata hai..and see. That's why power is the way to change people... Atleast family.

Jab tak authority nhi ...tab tak ignore karna seekho Authority kabhi nhi aati...bass accha bura waqt aata hai  Aur waqt kaam se kaafi hadd tak sudhar jaata hai  ... Tum chah ke bhi kuch cheezein control nhi kar skte ... Kabhi Tumhe bewajah dukh mil jaata hai.. Zindagi badi ajeeb hai...kabhi control deti hai cheezon ko ...aur kabhi bewajah meri zindagi ka control mujhse cheen leti hai  Ajeeb hai zindagi bhi..kabhi control hai..kabhi bilkul nhi. Ek gorakh dhandha hai  ...iska matlab ye nhi hai ki main unsuccessful reh jaunga. Successful hona bhi likha hai aur dukh jhelna bhi likha hai  ... One must seek power to control ... atleast family 

Main yahan aaya hun apne goals pure karne  ... Arre re re kisi ko mere phone uthane se bura na lag jaaye ... Darta tha ki log bura maan jayenge...bhai relations ko value deni hoti hai no doubt... Par na abhi time hai 1-2 saal ke baad de liyo... Par apne goals sacrifices karke nahi...warna future main bhuka mar jayega.. Aur logon ko honestly itna farak nhi padta mere calls se  .. Jisko lage bura lage....Bhai main bhi free nhi hun .... Ya toh kaam kar raha hun yaa kaam ke liye aaram ... ... Ab se cse ban gyi ek priority aur calls msg baad main sorted honge ...busy hona koi buri baat nhi hai..mapna future build kar raha hun.. Jisse samjhna ho samjhe...na samjhe toh mujhe khana nhi khilayenge wo future main.. Isliye kisi ko phone bje padhne ke time ...bajne de..jab Mann ho tab dekh ... Calls ka pressure na le  .. जो हर बार issue बनाते हैं… वो future में भी headache ही बनेंगे, चाहे तू अभी उन्हें खुश कर ले। थोड़ा लोग बुरा मानेंगे, थोड़ा तू awkward feel करेगा पर धीरे-धीरे सब set...

और भी हैं तेरी मोहब्बत के लायक इस ज़माने में, और भी हैं हद से ज़्यादा खूबसूरत इस ज़माने में। तू ज़रा बाहर निकलकर देख तो सही, तेरी उम्मीद से आगे भी है कुछ इस ज़माने में। बस तू अपना काम आराम से कर, किसी के जाने का ग़म ज़रूरी नहीं। जो आना होगा, वो खुद चलकर आएगा, तू भी थोड़ा ढूंढ ले इस ज़माने में। अपना दिल बंद मत कर एक के जाने पर, जो तेरी कदर करेगा, वो ज़रूर आएगा। कोशिश करते-करते गिरना भी बेहतर है, खाली हाथ बाँधकर बैठने से इस ज़माने में। और भी हैं, बहुत हैं, बेशुमार लोग, जो तेरे दिल की रानी बन सकते हैं। हिम्मत मत हार एक के जाने से, जो गया, वो कभी तेरा था ही नहीं। जो आएगा… वही सच में तेरा होगा इस ज़माने में।                                                                        - शिनाख्त 

जितनी थी, सबसे इश्क़ किया मैंने   अपने सर बस ये इल्ज़ाम लिया मैंने   जो कर न पाती मुझको प्यार लौटकर   सिर्फ उन्हीं को क्यों दिल दिया मैंने   अब सोचता हूँ तो याद आती है   पर किसकी याद आती है, यही दर्द लिया मैंने   अब याद उसकी नहीं आती, याद तन्हाई की है   जो न गुज़रा था वक़्त मुझ पर, वही गुज़ार दिया मैंने   अपनी तन्हाई भी अपनी नहीं लगती   उधारी का ये सौदा बेवजह लिया मैंने   दिल के टुकड़े बिसात में बिछाए बैठे हैं  इस तरह अपने दिल को सफ़ा किया मैंने   अकेले रहना भी एक कला है   उस कला के लिए क्यों लहू दिया मैंने                                                        - शिनाख्त 

Not here to enjoy  Now I am here to achieve something...do it  I am not here to relax and meet my friends I have some priorities...to achieve my goal  Now it became my workplace... For others , it's a place to enjoy , not the workplace. That's why I am not technical free here...I have priorities and work to be done. I am not f ree here. Maintain a social interaction balance...put phone aside during study.

may be this is because i am exhausted socially or something else.. but i am happy , doing things what i want.. i don't want to talk to anyone  .. someone replies as  it’s temporary and feels clean, like a reset… then you’re just taking a mental breath. And for what it’s worth, this state? It’s usually when people think the clearest and feel the most like themselves. Not a bad place to be, even if it feels a little strange....and Humans love labelling everything as a problem, so this kind of calm gets treated like a glitch. It’s not. It’s rare, honestly.

kya kru main logon ke hisaab se kich raha hun...koi suabh free hota hai dost, koi shaam ko. ...mere bhi kuch kaam hote hain shaam ko..mujhe subah bhi kuch kaam hote hai..aur upar se padhna bhi hota hai exam ke liye ...main sab ke hisaab se kich raha hun ...khud ke liye time nhi nikal paa raha Sun, tum thoda zyada hi “public service mode” me chal rahe ho. Har kisi ke schedule ke hisaab se adjust karte karte khud ka system crash ho raha hai… aur phir log bolte hain “tu toh free hi rehta hai.” Classic. Seedhi baat bolta hoon, thodi kadvi lagegi but kaam ki hai: 1. Tumhara time bhi kisi aur ke time jitna hi important hai Dost subah free hai ya shaam, wo unki life hai. Tumhara bhi schedule hai. Agar tum har baar adjust karoge, toh log assume kar lenge ki tumhare paas koi kaam hi nahi. 2. Sabko khush rakhne ka project fail hi hota hai Seriously, koi bhi banda 5 logon ke hisaab se jee ke khush nahi rehta. End me tum thak jaoge aur phir irritate bhi hone lagoge unhi logon se. 3. “No” bo...

 i have a fear about love ... that i will not be able to love anyone unlike her... though there is no such thing from her... so it was all one sided..damm  bhaad main jaaye wo. ..i want someone who will also choose me back 

Honestly, the only thing I like too much is  put my headphones on ... and ride scooty without any reason and roam around here and there ...  and i have to study ....what to do  .. i can use breaks ...  some breaks could be used for it... some breaks ...is to get bored.. avoid phone scrolling during breaks.. ... but study first and then ride scooty ...which usually consist for 30-40 min ... same goes for discussion with people. .. khair i change my break time from noon to morning

There is a popular nazm by sahir ludhyanvi as  main pal do pal ka shayar hun  pal do pal meri kahani hai  pal do pal meri hasti hai pal do pal meri jawani hai  .... mujhse pehle kitne shayar  aaye aur aa kar chale gye  kyi aahein bharkar aaye the  kyi nazmein gaakar chale gaye  wo bhi ek pal ke kissa the  main bhi ek pal ka kissa hun  kal tumse juda ho jaunga  jo aaj mein tumhara hissa hun ... ... kal aur aayenge khilti kaliyan chunne waale mujhse behtar kehne waale  tumse behatar sunne waale  ..... kal koi mujhko yaad kare  kyun koi mujhko yaad kare  mashroof zamane mere liye  kyun waqt apna barbaad  kare ... main pal do pal ka shayar hun .... .... the nazm is too good and had been written for outside world and ego how the outside world sees you does not define you, rather it defines your ego ...simply to say what world thinks about you and how you able to see what world thinks... sahir already said th...

So, when a person faces too much chaos... In his family, outside in the world... Too much suffering and too much pain from others  So he started to live alone... And there he got diseased with indifference.. बेतालुक्की  एहसतात मर जाते हैं  बस यूँही जीते रहो बस यूँही जीते रहो कुछ न कहो सुब्ह जब सो के उठो घर के अफ़राद की गिनती कर लो टाँग पर टाँग रखे रोज़ का अख़बार पढ़ो उस जगह क़हत गिरा जंग वहाँ पर बरसी कितने महफ़ूज़ हो तुम शुक्र करो रेडियो खोल के फिल्मों के नए गीत सुनो घर से जब निकलो तो शाम तक के लिए होंटों में तबस्सुम सी लो दोनों हाथों में मुसाफ़े भर लो मुँह में कुछ खोखले बे-मअ'नी से जुमले रख लो मुख़्तलिफ़ हाथों में सिक्कों की तरह घिसते रहो कुछ न कहो उजली पोशाक समाजी इज़्ज़त और क्या चाहिए जीने के लिए रोज़ मिल जाती है पीने के लिए बस यूँही जीते रहो कुछ न कहो                      – निदा फ़ाज़ली 

Feeling too much happy today... .. Koi nhi hai.. ... Na kisi se dukh.. Na kisi se sukh.. Me and myself ... Too much happy... Doing what I want... getting where I want to go... Na kisi ke aane ki khusi  Na kisi ke jaane ka gam Aur issi qadar  Beintha khush hai hum  ... leaving phone now 

rest is mandatory , not optional. Do nothing .. Best way to get a useful break is  To get bored. Don't do anything...and that's how you enjoy a break.

सबसे अलग अलग दोस्ती रखता हूँ  फिर भी मैं सबसे दोस्ती रखता हूँ  महफिलों के लिए लगते हैं काफी लोग  अपनी महफ़िल के लिए दो एक दोस्त रखता हूँ  महफिलों का सिर्फ सितारा बनना पसंद है मुझे  सबके जैसा बनने की सोच दूर रखता हूँ  मेरा तो कभी महफिलों में जी नहीं लगता  फिर भी मिलने की कुछ मजबूरी रखता हूँ                                                               - शिनाख्त  so what to do if you feel a little awkward when there are 4-5 people..but when when there are 2-3 people , you feel okay and yes , the thing that i experience is group discomfort... aur uss time mera listener mode on ho jata hai ... solution: dheere dheere habit dalo..and dimag khud yakin kar lega that its comfortable. and one more important thing... don't expect same depth from 4-5 people group to 2-3 people group... ... haan main th...

अपनी भी कुछ लोगों से तबीयत न मिली, इच्छा थी मिलने की, पर दिल की इजाज़त न मिली। सिर्फ़ गुस्सा ही नहीं था मुझमें लोगों से मिलकर, बात बस ये थी कि अंदर की तरबियत न मिली। मिली थी तबीयत एक वक़्त उनसे कुछ कहने को, वो फिर से मिले कभी, ऐसी ज़रूरत न मिली। न उनसे कोई बैर है, न कोई दुख है उनसे, बस यूँ ही फिर न मिलने की इज्जत न मिली। कितने गिले-शिकवे रखे थे अपनों से, जब गौर किया तो किसी से शिकायत न मिली। अपने साथ जो इतना अकेला रहा हूं मैं, मुझे तो अपनी भी तन्हाई की फ़ितरत न मिली।                                                                                                               - शिनाख्त 

लाल हाथ हो गये हैं मेरे अपने ही खून से लोगों को खुद मैंने दिया मौका चाकू घोपने का उन्होंने हँस हँस के मेरी चीखें निकाली बेकसूर बनकर मेरा खून से प्यास बुझाई इतने लोगों ने खून किया है मेरा फिर भी बस मेरे ही हाथ क्यों खून से रंगे हैं इसका मतलब क्या मैं ही खुद का कातिल हूँ ... खैर ये उनकी कहानी थी मेरी नहीं

 Mujhe toh aaj kal taunts mil jaate h padhai par Apne wildest dreams main nhi socha tha aisa .... accept that you can't do anything ...jhelo jab tak job nhi hai... waqt jawab dega mera apne hi hain jo mujhe taunt marte hain...they love me and still taunts me  strict boundaries banao... thick skin develop karo  aur jab bhi lage ki woh taunt kare... dhyan de ki ye unka nature hai mera nahi ... mera jawab mera waqt dega, aur mera kaam dega  Waqt gawahi bharta hai mere bhai ... i think mujhe unka validation chahiye (childhood ki wajah ) ...and thats why it hurts .. but ab mujhe unka validation nhi chahiye. ... As dhandha nyoliwala said ... Jin logon ke liye aapki chup kaafi ho, unke upar bolkar ya chillakar apna waqt zaya na kare वक्त गवाही भरता है  ... ...  Aur baat rahi logon ko badalne se  Main nhi badal paaunga logon ko  Wo apne aap badale toh thik h .. Otherwise main apna raste sahi hun

Have a sense of detachment from everything to everyone...right now ..if you want to stay happy right now.

Meri chahat hai, main haath na badhaun kabhi, Tu khud chal kar meri rooh ko chhoo jaaye. Main talabgaar nahi kisi bhi cheez ka, Jo tera dil chahe, bas wahi tu de jaaye. Na main banu bhikari tere ehsaason ka, Na tu farz samajh kar kuch nibhaaye, Agar pyaar ho, to apni marzi se ho, Warna khamoshi hi behtar kehlaaye. ... I don't want to simply allow me...i want her to participate with her whole heart.

i dont like comparisons with people...i hate it ..it fatal...its inaccurate and i guess it not the parameter to judge and i guess it is the most difficult to compare people.. ... That reaction makes sense. People act like comparing humans is some kind of objective sport, like we’re all products on a shelf with neat labels. We’re not. We’re messy timelines with context, history, mood swings, blind spots… and somehow people still go, “yeah, but who’s better?” Comparisons feel fatal because they flatten all that complexity into one cheap conclusion. They ignore why someone is the way they are. Different starting points, different struggles, different environments. You end up judging outcomes without understanding the process. It’s like comparing two books by reading only the last page and acting confident about it. They’re also inaccurate in a deeper way. What are you even measuring? Intelligence? Kindness? Success? Emotional maturity? Each of those shifts depending on context. Someone...

Being innocent is not enough. I used to want innocence in people in love, in friendships, in everyone around me. It felt safe. It felt pure. But innocence is just unawareness. And unawareness can hurt you without even knowing it did. I don’t want innocence anymore. I want people who are aware, who understand their actions, who take responsibility for them. Innocence shouldn’t be the standard. Justice should be. And it must be. ... ... First, harm doesn’t require bad intentions . Someone can be “innocent,” mean well, and still ignore your boundaries, dismiss your feelings, or act carelessly. The result is the same. Pain doesn’t politely check whether it was intentional before hurting. Second, innocence often avoids responsibility . “I didn’t know” becomes a shield. And while ignorance explains behaviour, it doesn’t fix it. If someone keeps hurting you because they’re unaware and never try to become aware, that’s not purity, that’s stagnation. Third, relationships need awa...

Since any work that not gonna make you earn money at that moment ...is not considered good ... For eg...if you can't earn by your studies... It's bullshit to others .. When others doubt yours studies ...  Like they think you are fake ...they think you just act to study...they think you just bluff around ... It's happens...and it's okay... because you are failing in something... don't judge them too much...leave it .. And to properly say ..you are failing to earn money...as you should(according to their opinion) ... Remember these people...stay a little away from them.. It's very human nature to do so...but they must not be your close ones...keep them a little away from you. Keep them at low influence distance: You hear them, but you don’t take them seriously You stay respectful, but you don’t seek validation from them You don’t explain yourself repeatedly like you’re on trial

तुम्हारी शिकायत खुद से करते हैं दिन-रात   खुद से खुद ही बातें करते हैं दिन-रात   तुम्हारी शिकायतें तुम्हें बैठ कर सुनाना चाहता हूँ   बस इसलिए तुमको याद करते हैं दिन-रात   पूछती थी कि कहाँ से लिखते हो ये सब   अब तुम्हारा ही ज़िक्र करते हैं दिन-रात   ये जो वक़्त गुज़र रहा है धीमे-धीमे   तुम्हारी यादों पर धूल चढ़ा रहा है दिन-रात   अब मैं भी मशरूफ़ रहता हूँ खुद में यूँ ही   अब खुशी से अकेले कट रही है ज़िंदगी दिन-रात

Get some comfortable with boredom...accept it.. Have a hang of it...sit with it peacefully. .. Boredom is somewhere , down the line,  good for me. DON'T  escape from it . people escape via  phone , other people.  other distractions ...sit with it ...' and after sometime it will guide you to where you have to go.

Mujhe lagta hai...jis ishq main stability nhi hai..wo pyaar nhi hai .... Wo pyaar ka facade hai.. Wo pyaar nhi hai.. love is not an instant thing...its a daily habit to be lived... isliye stabilty zaruru hai 

एक शख्स ने पूछा, "प्यार से क्यों डरते हो?" उसी ने फिर पूछा, "उन पर इतना क्यों मरते हो?" मैंने मुस्कुरा कर कहा, "जनाब, कमाल करते हो… आप भी इस प्यार की दुनिया को अब तक न समझते हो।" जिसमें मौत का डर न हो, वो प्यार ही क्या… जिसमें बर्बादी का डर न हो, वो यार ही क्या… मैं और प्यार, एक साथ रह नहीं सकते, कह दें सब कुछ दुनिया से, पर उनसे कुछ कह नहीं सकते… इसलिए डरता हूँ प्यार से, और अकेला रहता हूँ, कोई डर नहीं है आपसे, इसलिए आपसे सब कहता हूँ… खैर, ढूंढ लेंगे हम भी सागर को एक ही कतरे से, मौत को पहचान लेंगे दूर से  पहले ही खतरे से… जो हमारे लिए न हो, उसे छोड़ने में देर न लगाएंगे, खुद से अलग रख देंगे उसे, जो बस सहारे के लिए आएंगे… अब इसी गुमान में रहता हूँ, कि अभी काम बहुत है, नाम बनाना अभी बाकी है, और बोतल में जाम बहुत है… और सपने भी हजार चाहिए… एक इश्क से नहीं, अब मुझे हद से ज्यादा आराम चाहिए।                                         ... शिनाख्त 

 Answer is curiosity...agar choose karna hi hai toh sabse bada karo... Dekhte hain kya hota hai. I want to know how it actually feels like clearing country's biggest exam. I want to be on top ..and cse is the way. I want power and the highest jump and highest power for a layman is to clear cse. https://merekadhichawal.blogspot.com/2026/03/a-dream.html

Once a day , i asked myself and others  a question  ... Suppose if everyone dies on this planet, and only you have left...would you choose to die or would you choose to live  ... You are left ... everyone dies...even your beloved ... And that's how I am living life this moment ... So why to live or why not to die  Even I once try to commit suicide...got feared by the death and it's after scenes Then I think  Marna toh hai hi ek din...thoda jee kar dekh lete hain kahan tak jayega ye safar ... but it didn't motivates me  Vanshika pov ... live atleast for your parents But what if your parents are not meant to be as. Meaning in life  ...and now i realised why sufiyan cries a lot after his father's Parkinson's. Live for yourself...do what makes you happy...do what you think makes you great  ..do what satisfies you. ... Kyunki jee kar dekh lete hain kya pata maza hi aajaye... Curiosity makes a man to live his life . Curiosity lekar baithna nhi hai...dhu...

Fuck female friendship... Logon ko lagta hai Agar gf nhi hai toh female friend thik h... chutiyappa bc... Tumhe uske liye feelings develop ho jayengi...aur phir tum kuch nhi kar paaoge  Isliye seedhe bandi banao...aur gar nhi ban Rahi toh akele raho...iss bich ke female friendship ke bhosde main na giro Ab jo bhi female friendship hai ...dheere dheere sab ko tata bye bye kar do...bass official kuch kaam se related contact rakho  Kyunki lust ka nature aisa hai...agar tumhe laga woh halki si bhi badhi...toh puri badh jayegi... Lust is like either 0 or 100...nothing in between go for lust

Icchayein   Ye saksh gumnaami chahta hai  Ab sabse khud ki badnami chahta hai    Jo icchayein puri nhi ho skti abhi   Jo yengi baad main puri , abhi sabr chahta hai   Chahta toh sab kuch hai abhi  Par ehsaas bhi apne insaani chahta hai   Jo hona hoga , hoga samay par  Lekin in icchayon ke chakkar main abhi barbaadi nhi chata hai   Aur sab hi chahte hai apni icchyein ho puri  Mere jaisi icchayein kon nhi chata hai ... .... Yrr ...ek baat bta ...kya kru... physical desire puri bhi karna chahata hun .. But iss chakkar main bahut jyada hectic ho jata hai...padhai + desires... Aur na bhagu unke piche toh guilt rehta hai...aur upar se Mann nhi karta hain unhe pura karne ka... Aur jab pura karne ki koshish Karu toh band baj jaati hai meri Tu basically teen cheezon ke beech phas gaya hai: desire, guilt, aur discipline. Aur teeno ek dusre ko kaat rahe hain, isliye dimaag ka traffic jam bana hua hai. Seedhi baat bo...