Mere kadhi chawal

stay away from bullshit people...its not arrogance rather it is self preservation. there are many people as emotionally bullshit...but the trick here is that even they don't know about it. all i did is pity on them. and i can't do anything about it. they could be nice, naive and overall know how do they feel but still they are unaware about their actions. that's why they are emotionally bullshit people...stay away from them, since they are already puzzled with them and even if you want to help , or offer a helping hand ...they pull you in their problem and will eventually will blame you and you could be traumatised for no reason....rather than just being a nice person to someone. overall,  you are not responsible for fixing people who don’t even see their own patterns. and here i don't mean to not help anyone...help the needy but with the boundaries. and if someone understands or changes or get better...bravo...you finally found a person to be kept..and thts the most be...

तुम्हारी चीज़ों से तुमको पहचान लेता हूँ   अपने अंदर कुछ ऐसे वहम पाल लेता हूँ   हर किसी की निगाहों में तुम्हारी आँखें ढूँढता हूँ   हर किसी के चेहरे में तुम्हारी शक्ल पहचान लेता हूँ   शायद तुम गुज़रती रही हो मेरे आस-पास से   इस बात को अपना ही वहम मान लेता हूँ   मुझे इन बातों से ज़्यादा फ़र्क पड़ता रहा है   तुम्हें पड़ता होगा थोड़ा कम, यही बात ठान लेता हूँ   कई कोशिशों के बाद भी जान नहीं पाया एक इंसान को   आखिर मैं उसे एक अजनबी मान लेता हूँ उसने दर्जा खो दिया है मेरे माशुक होने का  अब सारे वहम दिल से निकाल लेता हूं।                                                            –शिनाख्त 

What's the difference between a stranger and her.. My mind says both do not bother...I first one is not known to me and the later one is not to be known by me. I try to know her but she refused.she can't be known to me as she refused to let me know. I don't know her exactly. I don't know the first one and I am not able to know the second one. At the end there is nothing of too much difference between a stranger and her. But still , she is a stranger with some memories.

I have a dream to become one of the best. Not to others but just for myself. CSE provides me that opportunity, and I will do it. It's purely selfish but I like it.

आज क्या हुआ है कि तुझे याद किया, सँवरे हुए दिन को यूँ फिर बर्बाद किया। कुछ लिखने को बचा नहीं है तेरे बारे में, आज फिर हमने स्याही को यूँ ही आज़ाद किया। सिर्फ़ अकेलेपन की वजह से तेरा ग़म है, वरना हमने तो दिल को तुझसे आज़ाद किया। अब क्या फ़ायदा उन इश्क़ की गलियों में जाकर, अब हमने उस गैर को ख़ुद से आबाद किया। अब तो कोई और ही आएगा, तुम कभी नहीं, तुझसे तो हमेशा के लिए दिल आज़ाद किया।                                                         – शिनाख्त