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  So, 6th June, addiction. I just got addicted. I just got addicted to things like music addiction, listening to music 24 by 7, phone addiction, random scrolling, apps, jerking off addiction, food addiction, binge-watching shows, scooty addiction, person addiction. Problem is not the addiction itself, problem is I can't able to do anything else. So, why even I go to them at the first place? Because reality is boring and they provide something new, an escape from reality. Initially, it feels good, but then it takes up all of my time, which feels bad at the end of the day because I have to do a work or some work. But if I have nothing else to do, it did not feel bad, rather it feels good. It's okay, it's like, it's okay. It's just that I feel guilty for not doing my work and then that automatically makes me feel bad for wasting my time. And if there is no work, then I won't be guilty, but there is actually a work. And the level of addict I am that sometimes I coul...

ज़माना पूछे जिस्म, बता क्या है, मैं पूछूँ तेरी हया क्या है। मैं तेरे पीछे पागल हो जाऊँ, ये तो बता, ऐसा तुझमें नया क्या है। तेरे जाने के बाद मैं ज़िंदा हूँ, तेरे जाने के बाद फिर गया क्या है। खुदा भी आ गया है मेरे साथ, बता तेरे पास अब बचा क्या है। इंसानियत के फ़र्ज़ निभाते रहे, और पूछूँ खुदा से कि दया क्या है। ज़हर भी हँसते-हँसते पी रहा हूँ, और बता, इससे बड़ी दवा क्या है। साँसों का चलना भी उसका रहम है, वरना इंसानों के पास आखिर रखा क्या है।                                                        – शिनाख्त 

life is lonely and alone in it's true sense. you have to die alone ..you born alone and yet you spend most of the time of your life interacting with people. so there is an inevitable truth and which is you can't equate life with some presence. life is fundamentally alone. is it sad? not so.. the question is why to form relations, sustain relations, in the first form if life is such in nature ? why not go to mountains and live a monk life ?  answer is you could, if you want so desperately , you can go to mountains. but why to form relations... first of all, life is so lonely in its nature , then do not try to form relations forcefully with the person who you did not vibe with. no false relations . and now the some of left relations are like some moments of joy..as guest in your lonely life. since childhood, i want an emotional connection...and everybody craves for such relationship, there is nothing wrong in that craving ..and yet you live your life despite this need, always the...

  After having a family fight  Ab koi nhi chahiye...akela hun khud ke saath hun...kaafi h

 

People and especially Girls , who use your emotional warmth without labelling anything to you...or just using you as a friend...stay away from those bitches. Because I don't want to be friends with girls.