Never thought about upsc cse...just think about studying subjects.
Keep both things apart ..upsc cse is different...and you have to focus on studying subjects .... nothing else. And there is no escape from dukha. It is compulsory to have dukha.
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सिर्फ़ ख़ूबसूरती के लिए नहीं कोई होना चाहिए कहीं बातों का भी एक बिछौना चाहिए। यूँ तो जिस्म भी ज़रूरी है मोहब्बत में, पर इश्क के पैमाने में जिस्म को खोना चाहिए। ख़ूबसूरती के मायने काफ़ी हैं ज़माने में, आँखें नहीं, तेरी बातों के लिए कोई रोना चाहिए। शक्ल, आँखें, पहनावा, जिस्म सब धोखा है, कोई इनको हटा कर किसी को दिल से पिरोना चाहिए। कब तक बंद रहते हैं तेरे होंठ मेरे होंठों से, खुलें तो कोई अफ़साना भी बयान होना चाहिए। मैं तंग आ चुका हूँ ख़ूबसूरत लोगों से, मुझे अब खुश इंसान का कोना चाहिए। जागते हैं जिसकी यादों में ये शख़्स-ए-शिनाख़्त, अब तुझे भी अपने ख़्वाबों में सोना चाहिए। – शिनाख्त
Non serious guy
What to do about it ? Be serious about only some things...for rest for this be non serious. That's how you became non serious but reliable.
Casual relationships ?
Why not casual sexual relationship Why not just meet, fuck and leave ? Because iske liye bhi gend mar wani pad jayegi Time isme bhi dena hi padega Jo main abhi nhi de skta Aur dusra mere liye sex badi baat nhi , emotional connection badi baat hai . .. But I still crave for sexual connection ? Because of biology, it happens. Solution Iske liye masturbation hai , ladkiyan taad lo. That's it. ... And i don't want to hurt someone since they seek long term relationships. ... Why don't just cheat women ? And enjoy sexual pleasures...even with those who finds me attractive...but I don't find them long term .. Because it goes against my spirit, my philosophy, using women just for sex ...ehhh. ...and that's why I am single and virgin.
Why hustle too much ?
Why to do hard things ? Why to achieve greatness? Even though you have potential, why to actualise it ? I want power for family but apart from it ? ... Answer Because I can. To avoid internal corrosion Haan, ek time main frustrate baitha hunga ki kaash main wo nhi kar paaya jo main kar skta tha. To avoid regrets Aur family ke liye toh karna hi hai ...power toh chahiye hi family ke thoughts change karne ke liye . Abhi thoda laziness lagegi hi. Can't do anything about it though ...still do it