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जगह जगह दिखते हैं, हमें हमसा दिखे न कोई। हम भी बैठे हैं अधूरे, हमें अधूरा दिखे न कोई। बाज़ार में बिक रही हैं चीज़ें हज़ारों, क्या कहिए  कोई ख़रीद ले हमको, हमें ऐसा मिले न कोई। भीड़ रहती है हर जगह, लोग होते हैं हर पहर, कोई मिले बेवक़्त हमें, ऐसा हमें मिले न कोई। दिन तो काट ही लेते हैं, रात गुज़र ही जाती है, कोई न गुज़रे वो शख़्स, ऐसा हमें भी तो चाहे कोई। दिल की दीवारों को खंडहर किया, हमने ख़ुद को समंदर कर दिया। आए कोई प्यासा हमारी तरफ, हमारी भी प्यास को बुझाए कोई।                                               –शिनाख्त 

There is someone whom I know , I jerk off by remembering her...though the relationship is not possible...and the actual problem is I know her in real life ...what could I do ? What gpt answers  So you’ve discovered the extremely ancient human technology called fantasizing about someone you can’t have. Congratulations. You’ve joined roughly 99% of the species. First thing: the act itself isn’t some moral apocalypse. Sexual fantasies about people you know happen to a lot of people. Your brain grabs a face it finds attractive and runs with it. Brains are messy little chemistry factories, not monks. The actual issue here isn’t the masturbation. It’s the mental loop you’re stuck in. When the relationship isn’t possible, constantly feeding the fantasy can keep your brain emotionally hooked on someone who will never be part of your life that way. That can slowly make you feel stuck, frustrated, or weirdly attached. A few practical things that actually help: 1. Stop fueling the obsession. ...

well the title of this post in itself sounds too much stupid and flawed.     many people disagree with it, even chatgpt or many ai will discard this. the only thing why it is considered good for me is because of ''personalisation''. if you ever run behind a destination  either you will lose and will be sad , frustrated. or you will win, but still feel empty and void. for me, there is a constant pressure to chase destination, chasing a perfect dream job, chasing deadlines, chasing hours to study, chasing targets ...fuck it...study without any result or anything in mind. what about future?  future is what will i do today, not what i think today about future. if you want something, first end its chase , if you want to get something, you have to stop searching for it...better to say you have to become ready for it..because life will give you what you want anyways ...just be ready for it . there is a quote  a person who choses just to walk goes far way than a pe...

sometimes its very necessary to end a romantic relation from your side  because of  1.either the other person never share same feeling  2. its become too hectic for both of you  in my todays write up, i have dino james , sahir ludhyanvi and jaun elia and the rahim in my defence and how they tell me to ending romantic relation DINO JAMES - GOODBYE  You know what time it is? It's time to say goodbye. मैं तुझसे रिहाई माँगता हूँ मेरी जान मैं तुझसे विदाई माँगता हूँ मेरी जान ये सफ़र में आगे सभी चीज़ें हैं bitter  मैं तुझसे गुडबाय माँगता हूँ मेरी जान मैं थक चुका हूँ मैं, राजा, करके बहस तू आई मेरी लाइफ में, I think I'm really blessed But now we are exhausted, अब दे नहीं पा रहे टेस्ट अब दोनों हम फँस गए with destiny arrest वो बातें बोलूँ layering, वो sitting on the chest अब कुछ भी तो बचा नहीं है so let it go rest अब छान के बस अच्छी यादें रखीं मैंने पास में ख़याल रखना, I wish you all the best. यहाँ पे गर छोड़ा नहीं तो आगे सभी wrong babe तेरे आगे होने लगा हूँ म...

Jab neend aa jaye, jab phone dekhne ki zarurat na pade, jab aankhein khud band hone ko bole.... Tab so jao...force mat karo khud ko sone ke liye ...na hi resist karo khud ko ...just let be there sleeping Kabhi external kuch problems ho toh unse deal kar lo ..jaise jaldi uth Jana aur kisi ne forcefully disturb kar diya ...bare with it.. Kyunki neend khud aati hai ...you can't do anything about it. But please don't scroll phone while sleeping...agar neend nahi AA Rahi toh better to do some tasks. You can try to watch some boring videos as children hindi cartoon and lost yourself.

There is something honest in my writing which I am gonna reveal today  I can fall in love with anyone without any reason. I can fall for any person who exists on this planet. There exists something good in everyone despite having many bad things. And I always love them for their good things. You can say or i could think...that it is a sign of a good and clear heart. But here comes the real deal. Every time I fell in love with that person... I make her try or I think I insist her to fill my void .. And that's where problems start ... I half can't love a full. It's a no match . ... But not anymore...I found my better half...that's not a person...that's not a thing ...rather the poets and their poetry. There are several names which I think to be considerable as nida fazli, bashir badr, javed akhtar, waseem barelvi, ahmed faraz, Nasir kazmi, faiz ...and many more  They somehow complete me . There is a thing said by nida fazli in his mushaira  "Ek gum ka dusre gum ...