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cse/youth/job/life : tryst with uncertainty

be it upsc cse,  be it any other job exam .. don't take too much serious anything  because it ain't so . uncertainty is the only certainty you can't fucking control big things. you can only control small things..like i try to control my studies weekly now.. fuck exams fuck cse...there is no guarantee of anything. and somewhat , this is actual life.. and this is the actual truth of life ..that life is uncertain those who get it are monks  and those who won't get it are puzzled people. and it is very hard to accept this fact . that you can control a small action or portion of anything . it is very hard to gulp this fact . .. it is very arrogant to control all things .. The depth of human arrogance is to think that you can control another human being, let alone your own life. You are entitled to your action, not the result. detach yourself from results. you can't control results. so fuck those expectations that you create in your own mind. healthy gamer gg video on thi...

Exam dete raho aur padhte raho

There is no time as such... To prepare extensively with taken time.. Read , learn , give test and repeat ... That’s honestly a solid strategy. Brutally unglamorous, which is usually how real progress works. Humans keep searching for the mythical “perfect preparation phase” as if knowledge descends from the ceiling fan after enough planning. “Read → learn → test → repeat” is basically the entire engine. The important part is this: Don’t wait to “finish” preparation before giving exams. Tests are part of preparation, not proof of preparation. Every exam exposes gaps faster than another week of passive reading ever will. People waste absurd amounts of time trying to feel ready instead of becoming ready. A better cycle is: Learn a topic Solve questions immediately Give mock/tests even while weak Analyse mistakes properly Revise only the weak zones Repeat before memory evaporates into the void And since you said there’s “no time as such,” that actually helps in one weird way: it forces mome...

Not so serious

Kisi bhi cheez ko itna serious na lo.. Not so fucking great career.. Chill raho apna aur kaam karo.. Ishq baad main karke ki wajah ye hai due to its 0-100 nature . Yaa toh kuch nhi  Yaa sab kuch  ... Isliye peak unemployment main ishq ho jata hai Yaa fir khaali time main ishq ho jata hai.. Ishq puri zindagi bhar leta hai..aur kisi cheez ke liye jagah nhi chodta .

इश्क़ बाद में

छोड़ दिया है दिल का ज़ख्म वक़्त पे देख लेंगे हम जैसा होगा प्यार, देखा जाएगा ना मिला तो क्या है ग़म ज़िंदगी बनाएंगे अच्छी वक़्त के ग़ुलाम नहीं सनम काम में कर लिया दिल पत्थर अब चाहे रूठ जाए सनम और भी मिल जाएंगे आगे जब संभल जाएंगे क़दम                                   – शिनाख्त 

career first, dating later

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i guess its one of my toughest decision.  maybe one of stupidest decision don't seek any love before career. so...not approaching any girls... talking to them only for formal or official work and nothing else. .. career ka itna obsession nhi hai, but career doob jayega , pyaar find karne ke chakkar main  shwetabh video 1 shwetabh video 2 jo milna hai , wo baad main bhi mil jayega..baht time hai aur bahut log hain aur abhi waale long term rahenge ye main decide nhi kar skta , ye wo decide karenge Love has no age limit. ... Job aayegi toh ek cheez se secure ho jaunga . Baad main cheezein jyada acchi ho jayengi .  Abhi padhai puri kar lete hai ..Mann ka kya hai Mann toh bahut cheezon ka krta hai . Fit uske baad dekhte hain. ..

Ego

I have an ego side... Fuck love , let me build my empire  Let me tell this fucking world who I am. For sometime, let be me myself great as I want to be . And this king can't bow down to any queen for sometime . Let queen be bow down to me now ..as I have too much ego. I will be at the top...and fuck all things now.

पुराने ज़ख्म

भरे हुए ज़ख्म आज भी दहकते हैं, यूँ तो पत्थर हुआ दिल, पर हम आज भी बहकते हैं। और मैंने हँसते-हँसते जाने दिया था उसे, मेरे गरम अश्क आज भी चहकते हैं। सोचा था माफ़ करने पर भूल जाऊँगा उसे, ये क्षमा के फूल कुचलने पर भी महकते हैं। दिल तो दिल है, डरता है ठोकर खाने से, ये तो हिम्मत है, फिर दरिया में उतरते हैं। इश्क़ के दरिया में डूबने में डर कैसा, ये तो मेरे जज़्बात हैं जो साहिलों से सिहरते हैं। अब जिसको रहना हो, वो वहाँ रहे, हम भी अब खुद में ही ठहरते हैं।                                              – शिनाख्त