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There is someone whom I know , I jerk off by remembering her...though the relationship is not possible...and the actual problem is I know her in real life ...what could I do ? What gpt answers  So you’ve discovered the extremely ancient human technology called fantasizing about someone you can’t have. Congratulations. You’ve joined roughly 99% of the species. First thing: the act itself isn’t some moral apocalypse. Sexual fantasies about people you know happen to a lot of people. Your brain grabs a face it finds attractive and runs with it. Brains are messy little chemistry factories, not monks. The actual issue here isn’t the masturbation. It’s the mental loop you’re stuck in. When the relationship isn’t possible, constantly feeding the fantasy can keep your brain emotionally hooked on someone who will never be part of your life that way. That can slowly make you feel stuck, frustrated, or weirdly attached. A few practical things that actually help: 1. Stop fueling the obsession. ...

well the title of this post in itself sounds too much stupid and flawed.     many people disagree with it, even chatgpt or many ai will discard this. the only thing why it is considered good for me is because of ''personalisation''. if you ever run behind a destination  either you will lose and will be sad , frustrated. or you will win, but still feel empty and void. for me, there is a constant pressure to chase destination, chasing a perfect dream job, chasing deadlines, chasing hours to study, chasing targets ...fuck it...study without any result or anything in mind. if you want something, first end its chase , if you want to get something, you have to stop searching for it...better to say you have to become ready for it..because life will give you what you want anyways ...just be ready for it . there is a quote  a person who choses just to walk goes far way than a person who chose a destination. bashir badra rightly said it as  मैं अपनी जेब में अपना पता ...

sometimes its very necessary to end a romantic relation from your side  because of  1.either the other person never share same feeling  2. its become too hectic for both of you  in my todays write up, i have dino james , sahir ludhyanvi and jaun elia and the rahim in my defence and how they tell me to ending romantic relation DINO JAMES - GOODBYE  You know what time it is? It's time to say goodbye. मैं तुझसे रिहाई माँगता हूँ मेरी जान मैं तुझसे विदाई माँगता हूँ मेरी जान ये सफ़र में आगे सभी चीज़ें हैं bitter  मैं तुझसे गुडबाय माँगता हूँ मेरी जान मैं थक चुका हूँ मैं, राजा, करके बहस तू आई मेरी लाइफ में, I think I'm really blessed But now we are exhausted, अब दे नहीं पा रहे टेस्ट अब दोनों हम फँस गए with destiny arrest वो बातें बोलूँ layering, वो sitting on the chest अब कुछ भी तो बचा नहीं है so let it go rest अब छान के बस अच्छी यादें रखीं मैंने पास में ख़याल रखना, I wish you all the best. यहाँ पे गर छोड़ा नहीं तो आगे सभी wrong babe तेरे आगे होने लगा हूँ म...

Jab neend aa jaye, jab phone dekhne ki zarurat na pade, jab aankhein khud band hone ko bole.... Tab so jao...force mat karo khud ko sone ke liye ...na hi resist karo khud ko ...just let be there sleeping Kabhi external kuch problems ho toh unse deal kar lo ..jaise jaldi uth Jana aur kisi ne forcefully disturb kar diya ...bare with it.. Kyunki neend khud aati hai ...you can't do anything about it. But please don't scroll phone while sleeping...agar neend nahi AA Rahi toh better to do some tasks.

There is something honest in my writing which I am gonna reveal today  I can fall in love with anyone without any reason. I can fall for any person who exists on this planet. There exists something good in everyone despite having many bad things. And I always love them for their good things. You can say or i could think...that it is a sign of a good and clear heart. But here comes the real deal. Every time I fell in love with that person... I make her try or I think I insist her to fill my void .. And that's where problems start ... I half can't love a full. It's a no match . ... But not anymore...I found my better half...that's not a person...that's not a thing ...rather the poets and their poetry. There are several names which I think to be considerable as nida fazli, bashir badr, javed akhtar, waseem barelvi, ahmed faraz, Nasir kazmi, faiz ...and many more  They somehow complete me . There is a thing said by nida fazli in his mushaira  "Ek gum ka dusre gum ...

तू मुझसे क्यूँ इतनी बातें बनाती है  फिर भी ये रिश्ता नहीं समझ पाती है  मेरे करीब रहती है जो तू इस कदर  क्या तेरे दिल में , मेरी कोई जगह आती है  तू दोस्ती कितनी अच्छी निभाती है  फिर भी खुद को नहीं पहचान पाती है  तू कह देती है मुझसे सब कुछ  और मुझसे तू क्या नहीं छुपाती है  तू नासमझ रह गई इस सब के बाद  तू पतंग की तरह खुद में उलझ जाती है  मैं नहीं हूँ इस उलझन का जवाब  मेरे जाने के बाद तू खुद को पाती है  तुझमे हिम्मत नहीं एक फोन करने की  और मेरा किया फोन तू नहीं उठाती है  ऐसे कैसे कर लू भरोसा तुझ पे  तू कहती है की याद मेरी आती  है तू समझदार नहीं पर महसूस करती है  लेकिन मेरे दिल में समझ पहले आती है  जा माफ किया तेरी नासमझी को  ऐसे तो दोस्ती नहीं निभाई जाती है  मैं दोस्त नहीं हूँ तुम्हारा  मुझे तो बस इश्क की ज़बान आती है  मेरे हिस्से में क्या ही बचता है तुमसे बचकर     मेरे हिस्से में तो बस बेकारारी आती है  कोई नहीं ठहरता हमेशा एक जगह  किसी की यादों से आगे कोई लड़...