Mere kadhi chawal

there is a constraint...i.e. power cut during night and there is no ac , lol ...only cooler ... try to get a hold of your sleep..like kuch ghante din main so jao  kuch ghnate raat main  .. raat main late tak padh lo  din main padhte raho ..bass issi trah manage ho jayega sab  and there is nothing as perfect sleep routine..you have to make it workable

it is the one of the truths of life, that if you do a thing in long term , regularly, the motivation goes away, what remains is schedule, structure , some moments of joy , some moments of boredom, some little moments of distractions and a balanced mood. there is no thing as '' i will fuck this thing up today''. or i will study 12 hours today  or i i will completely eliminate the syllabus today.. this all not gonna be happen so a question arise ..why are you doing it because it is needed to be done . You need a job. That's it. which ultimately gives you peace. you enjoy this lifestyle

ghar se bahar na niklo..kuch bhi ho jaye.. nikalna hai toh 7-8 bje raat ke wo bhi exercise karne  paani pite raho, drinks pite raho ..glucose, electral.. koi garam khana nhi fruits khao, tali hue cheezein nhi  din main do baar nahao aur sar dakh kar raho, dhoop main ...

 Mujhe toh aaj kal taunts mil jaate h padhai par Apne wildest dreams main nhi socha tha aisa .... accept that you can't do anything ...jhelo jab tak job nhi hai... Sometimes let it out...to either friends or to paper  waqt jawab dega mera apne hi hain jo mujhe taunt marte hain...they love me and still taunts me  strict boundaries banao... thick skin develop karo  aur jab bhi lage ki woh taunt kare... dhyan de ki ye unka nature hai mera nahi ... I am not what others think about me .. Aur kaam par dhyan de...taunts toh milte rehte hain hamesha ...nayi baat thode na hai koi Agar taunts par dhyan doge toh kaam kab karoge ...zindagi aise toh taunts main nikal jayegi ... Aisa hota rehta hai... don't take them seriously.. Serious lena hai toh actions ko le...na ki baaton ko. Tum taunts control nhi kar skte...apne actions se kaam kar skte ho.  Apna kaam kro ..uss par dhyan do...taunts ka kya  Jahan main aisa kon hai...ki jisko gum mila nhi mera jawab mera waqt dega...

be it upsc cse,  be it any other job exam .. don't take too much serious anything  because it ain't so . uncertainty is the only certainty you can't fucking control big things. you can only control small things..like i try to control my studies weekly now.. fuck exams fuck cse...there is no guarantee of anything. and somewhat , this is actual life.. and this is the actual truth of life ..that life is uncertain those who get it are monks  and those who won't get it are puzzled people. and it is very hard to accept this fact . that you can control a small action or portion of anything . it is very hard to gulp this fact . .. it is very arrogant to control all things .. The depth of human arrogance is to think that you can control another human being, let alone your own life. You are entitled to your action, not the result. detach yourself from results. you can't control results. so fuck those expectations that you create in your own mind. healthy gamer gg video on thi...