it is the one of the truths of life, that if you do a thing in long term , regularly, the motivation goes away, what remains is schedule, structure , some moments of joy , some moments of boredom, some little moments of distractions and a balanced mood. there is no thing as '' i will fuck this thing up today''. or i will study 12 hours today or i i will completely eliminate the syllabus today.. this all not gonna be happen so a question arise ..why are you doing it because it is needed to be done . You need a job. That's it. which ultimately gives you peace. you enjoy this lifestyle