problem with cse syllabus ?

So when i started preparing for the exam , there is a sense of detachment i felt and still feel during the preparation of the exam.

i thought that why this syllabus if cse is so boring ?

i mean i can't able to connect myself with cse syllabus. i have too many question regarding emotions, and my thoughts and what not 

eg. why this happens to me, why this happens in such way only to me, why i feel disconnectd from myself even when upsc cse syllabus is vast among every exam.

so here lies the answer, cse syllabus is not for the inside world. it does not answers you the inside question  of yours.

thats why most of the people who clear this exam are either emotional stable or get emotionally unstable during the service.

because this exam promise you emotional awareness , before of after.

so why and how read the syllabus ? 

because it answers your outside world questions. it answers how world works. it answers why world behaves in certain way.  thats why one must be curious to read the syllabus .

thats the reason to read the syllabus , not because you want to know yourself, as it can be done through other means and it is not the aim of cse syllabus at the first hand.

you have to balance both : your inside world and the outside world . cse syllabus can help with your outside world but not with inside, neither it promise nor it can help.


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