Mere kadhi chawal

what you are vs what people think about you ? since you unable to express yourself completely, they (people) knows only part about you. while you know yourself completely, that mismatch makes your identity blurred. and thats why you can live with yourself comfortably but not with others  solution  the mismatch is inevitable. No matter how honest or articulate you are, another person's picture of you will always be incomplete. Every interaction is like looking through a keyhole. Nobody gets the whole house. you have to live by it. Always make a reasonable effort to help others understand, but accept that understanding is ultimately their choice. So perhaps the balance is: Be authentic enough that your actions consistently reflect your values. Communicate clearly when it matters. Correct important misunderstandings. Let go of the need to be understood by everyone.

do it because you want to do it.. i want to become a civil servant. i want to clear upsc cse i want to prepare for upsc cse  but why ?  no answer..its like why i want to eat kadhi chawal because i like it . i want it .. but for it  sometimes you have to study without giving a second thought..   sometimes you have to study without mood .. but don't get into myth of perfection .. sometimes energy or motivation lags behind... then change the pace ..thats it  ... I want to do cse...but..but...but ...nothing now.

नहीं चाहिए अब तारीफ़, जैसा भी हूँ, ठीक ही हूँ। थोड़ी-बहुत दिक्कतें हैं, उन्हें भी खुद ही पूरा कर लूँगा। आपसे न कोई झगड़ा है, न कोई बहस। आपकी राय, आपकी तारीफ़, आपकी डाँट, आपकी बेइज़्ज़ती... सब आपकी है, मैं उन्हें अपना क्यों मानूँ? कोई तो होगा, आज, कल, या शायद कभी। और अगर कोई न भी हुआ, तो मैं खुद से सच्चा हूँ। पहले पड़ता था फ़र्क, हर तारीफ़ का, हर ताने का। क्योंकि मैं खुद को जानता ही नहीं था। इतने चेहरे मिले, इतनी आवाज़ें सुनीं, इतने सच बताए गए, कि एक दिन सच की शक्ल ही धुंधली पड़ गई। तब समझ आया, हर किसी का सच मेरा सच नहीं होता। अब रत्ती भर फ़र्क नहीं पड़ता। कोई साथ चले, तो अच्छा। कोई न चले, तो भी मैं अपने साथ चल दूँगा। आज़ाद तो आज हुआ हूँ, दुनिया से नहीं, अपनी ही सोच की कैद से। अब समझ आया, ज़ंजीरें लोहे की नहीं थीं, दूसरों की राय की थीं। पता नहीं लोग सच बोलते थे, या झूठ को सफ़ेद रंग से रंग देते थे। अब आपके ताने और आपकी तारीफ़ें, दोनों एक-सी लगती हैं। क्योंकि अब जो भी करता हूँ, दिल से करता हूँ। काम को अपना समझकर करता हूँ, सिर्फ़ काम समझकर नहीं। अब मंज़िल से पहले खुद को प...

Question  Ye perfection naam ki chidiya kahan se aayi ..i mean ki ek aisa din aayega jis din main sirf padhunga...aur uske baad kaafi samay tak main padtha hi rahunga ...strict discipline...jab tak goal tak na pahuch jau no break...I know ye galat hai... can't be possible in real life for perseverance but why it feels best and it feels the best thing to do ...it's all wrong still my mind cultivate it...aur kitna ajeeb hai ye ...ki ek din main perfect padhai karunga...no distractions...nothing ..just padhai padhai aur fir exam clear ...aur iska pura na ho pana guilt deta hai...and that's why I say guilt is cultivation of your own thoughts. ... How a same person would respond to it ? Answer.... Tum jis cheez ko describe kar rahe ho, uska interesting part ye hai ki tumhe reality nahi kheench rahi. Tumhe certainty kheench rahi hai. Dimag kehta hai: "Ek din aayega. Main subah uthunga. Bilkul distraction nahi hoga. Main 12-14 ghante padhunga. Phir agle din bhi. Phir agle din...

basically teri aukaat kya hai ...kya aisi cheez hai jo objectively teri hai..i mean jisko koi ignore na kar ske, koi repeat aur copy bhi na kar ske..aur jisse tu paisa kama le , jo kisi aur ke paas utni nhi ho jitni tere paas ho ?  padhai, writing , poem, consitution , legal field, oratory( isse develop karna hai) , baarikiyon main sochna , emotions handle karna and ek balanced nuanced persepective develop karna . padhai...auron ko simplify karke padha sku ...complex cheezon ka samjhna ..and at the end..better decison lena ... at the end padhai ki utility decision making hai at the ultimate form . policy formation mainbahut kaam aati hai actually padhai  Learning is the skill of building accurate mental models that improve your ability to predict, decide, and act effectively. ... पढ़ाई की असली उपयोगिता सिर्फ़ जानकारी इकट्ठा करना नहीं है, बल्कि दुनिया को बेहतर ढंग से समझना है ताकि हम बेहतर निर्णय ले सकें। जब हम UPSC के लिए Ethics, Polity, Economics, History या Environment जैसे ...

कभी वो रात आएगी तुम्हें हर बात कह दूंगा, मेरे अंदर दफ़्न हैं जो सभी जज़्बात कह दूंगा। वैसे तो चुप रहने की एक आदत सी है मुझमें लेकिन, जो अकेले नहीं कह पाता, तुम्हारे साथ कह दूंगा। मुझे नहीं पता कि कैसे होते हैं दो जिस्म एक जान, मैं तो मुश्किल में तुम्हारे हाथ को अपना हाथ कह दूंगा। मैं नास्तिक आदमी हूं या नहीं, क्या पता लेकिन, तुम साथ हो तो पत्थर को भी भोलेनाथ कह दूंगा। सब कहते हैं इश्क़ में दिन को रात कहने की, मैं तुम्हारे बगैर कैसे रात को रात कह दूंगा। यूँ तो मौसमों की ज़्यादा ख़बर नहीं है मुझे लेकिन, जो बरसने लगे आँखें तेरी, मैं उसे बरसात कह दूंगा। जो हो जाएँ कभी तेरी आँखों के शिकार हम, इसे अपने शहर की एक हसीन वारदात कह दूंगा। वैसे तो कोई दर्द नहीं है अब तेरे आने से, मगर तेरे जाने पर इन आँखों को दर्द की दवात कह दूंगा। अब लिखते रहना तेरे बारे में कोई नई बात नहीं, फिर भी मैं तुझे अपने लिखने की शुरुआत कह दूंगा। - शिनाख्त  ... Thanks to raftaar and krsna for that song...woh raat

so i have many questions ...like hell lot of questions... Is poori baat-cheet ka nishkarsh ye tha ki insaan ka zehen shayad is tarah bana hai ki usme sawal kabhi khatam nahi hote. Ek sawal ka jawab milta hai to uske neeche se doosra nikal aata hai. Shuru mein mujhe lagta tha ki shayad kisi din mujhe life ka koi final answer mil jayega, aur uske baad motivation apne aap aa jayegi. Lekin dheere dheere samajh aaya ki shayad aisa hota hi nahi. Motivation ka asli source kisi ultimate certainty se kam aur engagement se zyada hota hai. Paise kamaana, exam clear karna, skill develop karna ya kisi field mein competent banna isliye valuable nahi hai ki unke peeche koi cosmic purpose prove kiya ja sakta hai, balki isliye ki ye zindagi ko objectively behtar, zyada independent aur zyada capable banate hain. Inka koi final metaphysical justification shayad kabhi na mile, phir bhi ye bekaar nahi ho jaate. Maine mehsoos kiya ki meri asli dikkat purpose ki kami nahi, balki certainty ki demand hai. Mera...

Please , never make role models  and  fuck celebrities, dont follow them . they are stupidest of all time .. why i am saying so, i will tell you with following points : Sab mere jaise hi toh hai. Main bhi sabke jaisa hi hun Tarif aur taane ? Main khudko janta hun..toh auron se kya lena dena .. 1. buy the act, not the actor. buy the art, not the artist. try to separate the two. 2. you start to compare , you get discouraged. as you compare your background process to another person foreground process. 3. you don't know him completely. he is also no thinking of superiority rather he is focused on work...and he also don't know whether the work is small or big...its about time when the situation unfolds and it became big. conclusively, think about work and leave that greatness.

I don't know what it is...just my thoughts  सच बात तो ये है, मुझे भी नहीं पता मैं कौन हूँ। जहाँ बोलना हो, वहाँ चुप हो जाता हूँ। जहाँ चुप रहना हो, वहाँ हँस जाता हूँ। कभी सब कुछ समझकर भी कह नहीं पाता, कभी कहता हूँ तो शब्द कम पड़ जाते हैं। कभी ग़ज़लों में रहता हूँ, कभी देश के हालात देखता हूँ। कभी दोस्तों के साथ हँसी-मज़ाक, कभी ख़ुद के साथ बिल्कुल चुप। कभी ख़ुद के साथ मज़े, कभी दोस्तों से चुप। कभी सब कुछ जानने को आतुर, कभी कुछ भी सुनने को नहीं तैयार। कभी प्यार को पंछी, तो कभी गुनाहों का देवता। कभी सबकुछ समझने-समझाने वाला, कभी ख़ुद में उलझकर रह जाने वाला। अब इतनी-सी छोटी उम्र में क्या-क्या कर लूँ? लोग कैसे कर लेते हैं इतने बड़े काम पता नहीं लेकिन मैं सच्चा रहकर अपना काम करता हूँ लगता है कि उन्हें भी नहीं पता होगा काम छोटा है या बड़ा बस वो काम करते हैं और मैं भी काम ही करता हूं बस  शायद मुझे पता है मैं कैसा हूँ, पर इन सब में असली मैं कौन हूँ, पता नहीं। इसलिए ख़ुद का नाम "शिनाख़्त" रखा है। असल नाम नहीं है... पर ख़ुद की शिनाख़्त है। मिला है जवाब कि ये सब मैं ही हूँ। ये पहचान ढूँढ़...

to act or to think ...which one of these is the solution of any problem or any situation .. i guess, first you have to think...you have to mentally prepare yourself for the situation. then slowly slowly with patience ...you have to start acting on it, and it comes with highs and lows. and it can go for anything like prepare for war, dealing with sexual appetite, building a team plan , even while managing yourself .

Because unable to understand it Ek time limit set karke dekhte hai. For protest reels. Take a pause and do some work.  

 Bol daal...darna bhul Jaa... Jo andar hai bol Bhai ...sabko bol.. Koi na sune..toh bhi bol ... Let it out...let it out...aage jo bhi ho bol bhai

Study for yourself. Job aaj hogi kal nhi. Don't sell yourself for a job. Don't lose your confidence for a job. Earn confidence. Earn money. Earn education. Educate yourself so you're not bothered by the presence or absence of a job. Kuch na ho to baccho ko hi padha kar paise kama lena. (If nothing else works, you can always teach children and earn money.) Education is the way to do things without having a job. Education ki help se koi bhi job/work/skill aa jayegi. (With education, you can learn any job, work, or skill.) You want to make money. It can be done by any job, and more importantly by education. Education is fodder. ... Clear Upsc because  bahut saare doors unlock kar dega...even you can initiate something from your level ..you could reform from inside... atleast 1 bit Agar kahin par personal morality gawahi nhi deti toh better leave that job...aur mil jayegi because you cleared upsc  Apni education strong rakh. With clearing...

आज जंतर मंतर पर लोगों का कत्ल-ए-आम हुआ है, देश का हर नेता क्या धर्मेंद्र प्रधान हुआ है। बच्चे मरे, रोते रहें, जनता जगे, नेता सोते रहें, खुल पर बातें कहना यूँही बदनाम हुआ है, देश में हर नेता क्या धर्मेंद्र प्रधान हुआ है। कुछ कह नहीं सकता, डरता हूँ बड़े बड़े लोगों से, बड़ी बड़ी लाठियों से, उन आँसुओं के गोलों से, ये सब देखकर आँखों का बहुत बुरा हाल हुआ है, देश में हर नेता क्या धर्मेंद्र प्रधान हुआ है। कुछ खुलकर कहते नहीं, सत्ता से ही घबराते हैं, अपने खुलकर विचार रखने से हम यूँ ही कतराते हैं, पिट रही हैं जनता, नेता लोग इतराते हैं, देखकर हालात मेरे अंग अंग घबराते हैं। आज जो लोकतंत्र चीर-हरण सरेआम हुआ है, देश का हर नेता क्या धर्मेंद्र प्रधान हुआ है। मैं बड़ी बड़ी बातें नहीं कहना चाहता, न मैं किसी तरफ का होके रहना चाहता, कुछ इंसानियत भी बच जाए लोगों में, बस किसी गुरूर में हमेशा बहना चाहता। अब क्या ही बोलूँ,दिल दिमाग में बवाल हुआ है, क्या देश का हर नेता धर्मेंद्र प्रधान हुआ है। - शिनाख्त 

Take a rest always ...rest is very very important...it includes boredom. जब हर कदम दुश्वार लगे जब ठहरा पानी मझधार लगे  जब कोई पत्ता भी पतवार लगे  तब थोड़ी देर बैठ जाना  चलना भी ज़रूरी है तो रुकना भी You have to lose the battles to win the war.

nobody is able to understand it...and thats why i feel alone  carrer ka stress hai, gad tha , depression defeat kiya ..kaafi kuch haraya ...personal victory ..ab bhi sab kuch sambhalne ki koshsih main laga hua hun, ...even my relations preparing for upsc cse, aur jab koi inn sab ko nhi samjhata toh alone feel hota hai Aur ek cheez jo shayad kisi ne tumse nahi kahi: Tumhe shayad samjhe jaane ki bhookh hai, validation ki nahi. Dono alag cheezein hain. Validation ke bina insaan jee leta hai. Samjha na jaana bahut akela kar deta hai. Isliye 100 logon se appreciation dhoondhne ke bajay 1-2 aise log dhoondo jinke saamne tum mask pehenne ki zarurat na pade. ... Ek circle banao. 1-2 serious aspirants ya ek mentor. Sabko apni kahani batane ki zarurat nahi. Bas aise log jinke saath khulkar discuss ho sake. apni kahani sunao...jo sunna chahein...expressive bano... ये वक्त अच्छा नहीं है  ये वक्त बिल्कुल भी अच्छा नहीं है  literally fati padi hai,,, bc itna kaam ...fir kaam.. sab ku...

अपने इन सच्चे जज़्बातों का क्या करूँ मैं  सुन लेते है , कोई समझ भी ले  झूठे लोग है , समझ नहीं आती उन्हें ये सब ढोंग करते है समझने का  अगर मुंह से निकली है  और वो आपके किरदार में न दिखें तो क्या फायदा दिल की बातें करने वाला इंसान या सच्चा इंसान  थोड़ा घबराया हुआ ही रहता है इतने साफ तो आयने भी नहीं होती जितने साफ किरदार बना लेते हैं झूठ का  सच किरदार में बसता है  झूठ बातों से थोड़ी चीड़ होती है  उसकी ज़बान कुछ कह रही है  और इसकी हरकतें कुछ और  इतना डरते हो दुनिया से की  खुद को ही खुद से दूर कर बैठे को झूठा इंसान डर पोक ही होता है सच्चा व्यक्ति चोट खाकर हिम्मत रखता है खड़े होने की  इतना खुश देखकर हैरान होता हूं की ये सब झूठ है, कुछ दर्द तो रहते ही हैं khud ko time de common terms par mil explain kar puri tarah se  samjha usko ki abhi aisa hai hamesha nhi rahega ek maturity insaan mai aati hai kaam ki 

Soch Mann nhi hai padhne ka ...toh time bhi kam hai ...exam ke liye  You know you like to study....but itna sara ya itne time ...ya fir aise hi ... without any of these Mann nhi hota hai padhne ka ... But fir bhi padhna padta hai...kuch paane ke liye jaise job ...kyunki har baar padhna bura nhi hota ...but uske alawa kuch aur interesting mil jata hai ... Isliye kyi baar focus ko lekar aana padta hai.. Khud nhi aata...ghasitkar lana padta hai... slowly with patience 

Whenever you feel hopelessness, nervous, and panic ...like when you know you gonna commit a mistake ... Pause for a moment  Breathe  Exhale  And  Smile ... And get again on that work.

Like Venus over the moon, I will always be there for you. Hard times made me stronger, Yet sometimes I still feel blue. You weren't there. I was missing you. Then I remembered you weren't true. Are you gone, or where are you? Have you left this world too? The things I've faced helped me grow. You weren't a lie, but not the truth I know. Those memories make me feel sick, But I'll be okay without you. Like Venus over the moon, I will always be there for you. - shinakht 

i am not like them...as i don't know them...i don't what it takes to be topper.. all i know is myself , my study and exam and past questions answer and answers of others..not the person itself.. i know their work and that's it. if it helps me , i will adopt. apart from it.. i am myself, and will become better with myself..like from being myself to better myself but not others cheap imitation or copy. my situations are different and i will try to excel in my situations..i will not compare with anyone else other than me . like i don't have luxury of uninterrupted time...i have some family chores and i have to manage it all and work with optimum output,, https://mykadhichawal.blogspot.com/2026/06/haalat-se-ladai.html

so first thing first... the thing that differentiate between being a child to being a conscious sensible person is how you treat your mistakes. in childhood, we often get called, criticised, insulted or sometimes even punished. this feeling started to increase as we grow as a teenager . and how a person learn? by seeing, observing his environment...so with time we tend to hide our mistakes because everyone does so...why to get attached with mistakes, why not just simply hide them, because saying sorry, apologising and accepting mistakes is considered to be a part of failure in society...but one thing i want to make clear is that mistakes are not part of failure, rather part of being human. as an adult, as a sensible cognition, you have to accept mistakes and accept that it is one of the essential part of the journey. nothing works absolute, the bigger things you try, the more things you try, the more mistakes you have to witness, because that's how learning works. remember when Edi...

keep them nearest with you. and try to grow, walk and run with that. procedure could vary, could be invented , but these are more important.

One day, I sat with myself and asked a very basic question: Why am I so hesitant around my family during conversations? Why am I unable to speak my heart out? Why do I hesitate to speak clearly when my family is around, while I don't feel the same hesitation with my friends or even complete strangers? In fact, with strangers I'm often quite vocal and extroverted. So what changes when I'm with my family? As I reflected on my memories, I realized there were two major reasons. The first was my past experiences. Whether I call them trauma or simply painful memories, they shaped the way I learned to express myself. Somewhere along the way, my mind started believing that staying quiet was safer than saying the wrong thing. The second reason was fear. Not just the fear of being judged, but the fear of not saying things perfectly, the fear of being misunderstood, laughed at, or criticized. Because of that, I began holding myself back before anyone else even had the chance to react...

कभी मैं कह नहीं पाता हूँ  और कभी मैं सह नहीं पाता हूँ।  इस बोझ को उतारने के लिए  मैं लिखता चला जाता हूँ।  अपने ही सबसे करीब हैं और अपनों से ही डरता रह जाता हूँ। और कोई क्या बोलेंगे इससे क्या फरक मुझे  पर अपनों की बातें सोचकर दिल दुखाता हूँ।  बाकी सबके नज़रों में खुलकर कहता हूँ  अपनों की नज़रों में चुप रह जाता हूँ।  पुराने जख्मों को बीते एक अरसा हुआ  फिर भी क्यूँ आज उनसे डर जाता  हूँ  वैसे तो अच्छा सोचता हूँ काफी  पर कभी कभी अपनी ही सोच से घबराता हूँ।  ये कैसा अजीब रोग है मेरा  पूरे के चक्कर में अपना आधा भी गवांता हूँ।  - शिनाख्त  

except for some people who i truly admire. for others what i think is this , those who currently generally surrounds me  I don't consider anyone greater than me when I work. And most of the advice by others ...i treat them very mid... because nobody able to walk in my shoes. At the end...it me overall.

At the end of the day, sab job hi hain. Sabke kuch pros hain ... Sabke kuch cons hain... Kuch cheezein aapko better suit karengi ...kuch nhi... There is nothing as this job is built for me.  Though there could be overlaps ..but these overlaps are across the jobs. There is no " my job "  Unless you just want a big job from there category. So ..what about personal life then It will be available in small parts...in small time frame.  No matter what you choose...you will be always dissatisfied. It's human nature ...to be dissatisfied and compare your things to others And the thing about personal life...is true... You can take any job regardless of it's nature...personal life always become less available. That's is the cost of big job. And I want such big job And i will work my ass off Why you want such job ?  1.Because I want betterment, smoothness and how world  looked with such great job... That easy life.  2.because i think i deserve it but pta nhi iska 3.ea...

Humko waise toh koi fursat nhi Lekin tere alwa toh aadat nhi Hum toh rehte hain tere khayalon main bass Humko aur kisi ki bhi jurrat nhi  Dil main ek sokh hai tere gum ka abhi Aur waise toh duniya ki chahat nhi  Ab aise bimaron ko kya boliye  Humko dil ke dawa ki koi adat nhi  Yun sunke tum meri daastan Tum bhi hairan ho mere saath ya Tum bhi baithe ho leke apna sanam Aur karne ko hai bhi koi kaam sa Dil ki halat hai yun ek rog si  Tera chehra bana hai iss dil ki dawa  Aur tu hi bta ki kya hum karen  Tujhe dekhe yaa ghut te rahein hum sadaa Aaj bhi na pucho mujhse ye baaton ko Teri aankhein hain mere dil ki gawah Aasmaan bhi hai apne hi charon Aur tere baatein rahi hain yahan - shinakht

Try to maintain consistency.... There will be no perfect days... Uninterrupted time is a myth... And it is spread by your brain...not in reality  Kuch na kuch kaam chalta rehta hai... Avoid those little moments...and if you cannot them Spend those little moments and back to work. That's why zoom out and work as your schedule. And measure the progress weekly , not day wise.

sab alag alag hai...and ek cheez main great banna aur dusri cheez main apne aap greatness aajayegi is not true.

हर आदमी हर समय  मौजूद नहीं रह पाता, कोई तन्हा होकर भी तन्हा नहीं रह पाता। कभी मैं व्यस्त, तो कभी मेरा दोस्त व्यस्त, हम दोनों में से एक हमेशा खाली नहीं रह पाता। बड़ी मुश्किल से निकालता हूँ दिल से वक़्त, ज़िंदगी की भागदौड़ में कोई किसी का नहीं रह पाता। खुद को बुरा समझूँ या दोस्त को, जैसा भी हो, रिश्ता हमेशा एक-सा नहीं रह पाता। ऐसा क्यों न हो कि व्यस्तता ही बचे बस  , मैं पूरी तरह व्यस्त भी तो नहीं रह पाता। एक फ़ोन ही तो बचा रखे है संबंध अपने, मैं फ़ोन नहीं चलाता, और वो फ़ोन से दूर नहीं रह पाता। इस दौर ने बक्शी है तन्हाई  काम वालों को हमेशा , कोई चाहकर भी लोगों से  हमेशा घिरा नहीं रह पाता ।  अपनी तन्हाई को लेकर कहाँ जाऊँ, मैं भी शायर किस्म का  बिना बोले नहीं रह पाता। या तो काम पर ध्यान दो, या संबंधों पर, इस जीवन में कभी  संतुलन क्यों नहीं रह पाता? - शिनाख्त  

Availability does not mean no friendship. Long term non availability is just someone busy somewhere. If they could make time...they will take time ...but surely respond back . If they don't make time...just put them off. But no rivalry as such . It's just like everyone grows out. Neither I will be able to available nor the people I want will be available. Only one sided family will be available. ye kaam, goals, dreams availability chin lete hain...mismatch ho jata hai na waqt le paoge, na waqt de paoge..isliye thode lonely ho jaate h  People will call out kamzor but you should keep doing exercise and be fit.

Paisa is not evil in itself. Money doesn't make someone good or bad. It simply gives them more choices. If you have money, spend it the way you want. If you enjoy dressing well, dress well. If you like luxury, enjoy it. If you want to look rich, that's your choice. If you don't care about expensive clothes or appearances, that's fine too. The problem isn't spending money. The problem is pretending. Don't force yourself to look rich just because society expects it. And don't force yourself to look humble because humility has become fashionable. Be authentic. If you don't have money, don't pretend that you do. If you have money, don't pretend that you don't. Most importantly, don't look down on people who have less than you. Wealth is not a license to measure another person's worth. Money is a resource, not a personality. Be real. Let your choices reflect who you are, not who you think other people want you to be. Pretending, whether i...

Though abhi resources mere paas nahi hain, but soon it will be mine. i will try to get what i want.  Logon se bada hun, jo bhi aas-paas hain, but still zindagi se bada nahi. Waqt ka mohra, uparwale ki katputli,  still greater than everyone. Mujhe dikhta hai sab log, sab jo logon ko nahi dikhta.  Is it ego ? Ab kya bolun, I'm not boasting. It is what I truly feel about myself, that I will be on top. I have no problem with people, neither I consider them low. But I consider myself high.Because they can't able to understand and reciprocate the things I share and dismiss it as too deep or too sensitive. and its a plain fact that i am greater than my family. and thats it...no bothering with them ...and its my ego and narcissism speaks..and yes i admit it is there , and i guess its very important to have them to live , but just don't be overshadowed with it. But it is not such thing that i never admire people...rather I admire my brother...I admire poets and many more. And some...

I think they think me as a failure. But it's not the true. Rather, I'm a warrior.  Despite failures, I'm still on the battlefield. And one day I will crack it. I will make my life good, no matter whatever it takes. And I will try to make my schedule most out of it. I will try to manage my sleep. I will try everything to make a whole out of it.  I'm 23 and it's still working. And one day I will shine despite these failures. I'm not late, actually. And some people think about me as that I'm getting late. But I will be a fucking impactful and a great, not a great, but yeah, of course, an impactful person because I'm going through all these hardships.  And it's my personal battle, honestly. It's the battle only belongs to me, nothing to my family members. And I don't expect my family members to see me in whatever they want, at all their wish.  Whatever they think about me, I will prove it to myself that I'm capable. I'm capable that what ...

LOVE YOUR SLEEP Not a thing to be afraid, rather be relaxed with her, like a baby. She's not your enemy, she's your soul. She's your best friend, your true friend, your girlfriend. She's not a way to escape. She's not a thing to be killed for compensating for others. Sleep is like your wife. Love her. And boldly i can claim that sleep is greater than sex. don't compromise it for the sexual intercourse. its a daily need like bathing, poop, eating ...while sex is not a daily ritual. thats why sleep > >>sex sleep and memory go hand in hand. The secret of everything is sleep. Nobody understands it that's why ensure, ensure to sleep early and rise early. Because I can't sleep late(everybody in my house ain't allow). smartphone and sleep are enemies. The one thing that you could hate is phone, not sleep. Phone kills sleep. Don't sacrifice sleep forever for just a momentary gain. It's a god gift. Keep it, cherish it. Love her like a wife, ...

हम भी चुप बैठे हैं इंतज़ार में, हो चाहे अंतिम अभी कतार में। खरीद लाएँगे वक़्त अपना भी, हो कितने भी खरीददार बाज़ार में। बताएँगे सबको क्या-क्या झेला है, कैसे सस्ते बिके थे महँगे संसार में। किसी ने छोड़ा साथ बीच में तो क्या, हमने संभाला था ख़ुद को मझधार में। अभी खड़े हो मेरे साथ जो भी, हम खड़े थे अकेले अपनी हार में। ख़ुद को ले जाएँगे बुलंदियों तक, जब तक चेहरा न छपे इश्तिहार में। सर झुकाकर काम करते रहे हम  कभी नहीं थे सहमत आपके विचार में। वो मुश्किल समय था, इसलिए कुछ बोले नहीं, अब बोलेंगे खुलकर अपने विचार में। हम नहीं चलते आपके हिसाब से, हम रहते हैं अपनी ही रफ़्तार में। हम तो मिलेंगे केदारनाथ तुमको, तुम ढूंढते रह जाओगे हमें हरिद्वार में। - शिनाख्त 

Nobody acknowledges me in my family...i could extent it to the world. .why  . dont want . leave them . do the work  its your selfishness to be acknowledgement   avoid the quarrel as much as possible dont expect.. ..leave it . leave your ego ..cut yourself from this acknowledgement  ..apne main khush raho without quarrel with them  ..avoid their rules silently ..don't utter a word  ..myth of control . the only thing you can control is yourself  कुल मिलाकर अपने काम पर ध्यान दो acknowledgement को जाने दो , झगड़ा कम से कम ।।। और हो सके तो ये control की डोरी अपने हाथ में रखो ।।।  तुम मर जाओगे फिर भी लोग acknowledge नहीं करेंगे ।।। तो खुद की dependency उन से हटाओ  apni life build karo ...khud ki life khud ke hisaab se build karna baad main..apni unki thodi manni padegi... jab khud ke decision khud lene ki opportunity bhi ayegi ...tab use karna .. structure ko chota hokar resist mat karo..top par pahucho aur change karo 

Sleep: My Mood Stabilizer Sleep is the single biggest factor behind a stable mood. It influences both the mind and the body, which is why getting enough quality sleep naturally improves emotional balance. For me, fixing my sleep schedule is the foundation that supports everything else. Rules 1. Go to bed early. 2. Wake up early. 3. Stop using my phone after dinner unless it is necessary. 4. Keep my phone away from my bed while sleeping. 5. Use my phone only for essential tasks like calls. Avoid unnecessary screen time. 6. take power nap, if required , not more than 1 hour. These rules are not restrictions. They are anchors that keep my mood stable and make my daily routine easier to maintain. A Reminder Studying late into the night may help you win today's battle, but you'll lose the war if it ruins tomorrow. One productive night is never worth sacrificing several unproductive days. Principle Consistency is built on recovery. Take your sleep seriously, not your "serious sl...

It is the thing on which I have to work 

You need to get a job  You need curiosity for starting any work. It's like a prerequisite. But apart from curiosity, you have to put effort in it if you want to get some results. Just alone curiosity is not the way, basically.

  Philosophy on hairs Get transplant....earn for transplant and once you earn ...get a best transplant that you could. khud ke paise kamao..then go there ...since it's a long term treatment. If not...why not go bald  See a dermatologist You will look good ....no it ain't for me I think  Crown hai...toh looks toh Bach gye Ab bacha treatment.... First of all...ghar main sabke hai ye Baalon ke alwa bhi zindagi h bhai Five messages ago, your mind was telling you: "I won't be able to come back." But when we actually looked at the evidence: Your front hair looks good. Your hair overall looks dense. Your crown has apparently looked similar since childhood. Your family has the same crown pattern. The 5-month comparison doesn't show an obvious worsening. Does that prove you don't have male pattern hair loss? No. A dermatologist is still the right person to decide that. Does it support the story that you're already on an unstoppable path to severe baldness? From...

हमेशा खुश ये ज़िंदगी रहे, जैसे कोई मीठी दीवानगी रहे। जितना ख़राब ये दिमाग़ है, उतनी सँवरी ये ज़िंदगी रहे। ख़ुदा रहे या न रहे मगर, उसकी हमेशा बंदगी रहे। जैसे भी गुज़रे रात मेरी, सुबह में फिर ताज़गी रहे। तू कितना भी हो समझदार, ज़िंदा तेरी सादगी रहे। मोहब्बत हो जाए इक बार अगर, क्या फिर कहीं दिल्लगी रहे? मैं कितना खुशनसीब हूँ कि, मरकर भी ज़िंदा आशिक़ी रहे। – शिनाख्त 

Treat victory as failure ... Keep yourself apart from it. ... Forget it ... It's okay...you will do something else... ... It's gone... don't attach with it... .. Don't take it personal..just have gratitude of people who were with you. .. Win without arrogance. Lose without collapse.. .. Whatever is done, leave it and focus on work next... ... Focus on next procedure... that's it.

मेरा वहम है कि हर किसी को पा लूंगा कब तलक झूठ से खुद को यूँ बहला लूंगा जिसे चाहा इतने दिल से, उसे पा न सका फिर कैसे किसी और से दिल लगा लूंगा  यूँ तो बदनाम हैं दुनिया में हज़ारों ज़हर  मगर मैं महफ़िलों में बस तेरा नशा लूंगा मेरा वहम है या कोई सच में चाहे मुझे इसी उलझन में खुद को ताउम्र उलझा लूंगा ये जो मुझे रोज़ मुस्कुराकर देखा करती हैं क्या उन्हें अपना टूटा सा दिल दिखा लूंगा जब अपनों से ही दिल की बात हो न सकी फिर मैं गैरों से भला दर्द की क्या दवा लूंगा - शिनाख्त