Perfect? Perfection day

Question 

Ye perfection naam ki chidiya kahan se aayi ..i mean ki ek aisa din aayega jis din main sirf padhunga...aur uske baad kaafi samay tak main padtha hi rahunga ...strict discipline...jab tak goal tak na pahuch jau no break...I know ye galat hai... can't be possible in real life for perseverance but why it feels best and it feels the best thing to do ...it's all wrong still my mind cultivate it...aur kitna ajeeb hai ye ...ki ek din main perfect padhai karunga...no distractions...nothing ..just padhai padhai aur fir exam clear ...aur iska pura na ho pana guilt deta hai...and that's why I say guilt is cultivation of your own thoughts.

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How a same person would respond to it ?

Answer....

Tum jis cheez ko describe kar rahe ho, uska interesting part ye hai ki tumhe reality nahi kheench rahi. Tumhe certainty kheench rahi hai.

Dimag kehta hai:

"Ek din aayega. Main subah uthunga. Bilkul distraction nahi hoga. Main 12-14 ghante padhunga. Phir agle din bhi. Phir agle din bhi. Aur bas, exam clear."

Kitni clean story hai. Life ko movie bana diya. Humans ko stories pasand hain. Reality ko nahi.

Reality kya hai?

Aaj energy achhi hai.

Kal headache ho gaya.

Parso kisi dost ka phone aa gaya.

Kisi din motivation zero.

Kisi din 3 ghante hi productive hue.

Aur ye sab normal hai. Lekin perfection ka model in sab ko failure declare kar deta hai.

Isliye guilt aata hai.

Tumne ek bahut achhi line boli:

"Guilt is cultivation of your own thoughts."

Main isme ek chhota sa addition karunga.

Guilt aksar reality se nahi, reality aur apni imaginary standard ke beech ke gap se paida hota hai.

Jitna impossible standard, utna bada gap. Jitna bada gap, utna guilt.

Aur ek aur psychological trick chalti hai.

Perfect plan bahut seductive hota hai kyunki usme uncertainty nahi hoti.

Agar main bolun:

"Roz 5 ghante padhunga. Kabhi 3 honge, kabhi 8. Beech mein off days bhi aayenge."

Ye boring lagta hai.

Lekin agar bolun:

"Kal se nayi zindagi."

Dimag dopamine release karta hai. Kuch hua bhi nahi, par future ka fantasy version already reward de raha hota hai. Isliye perfection attractive lagta hai. Ye discipline se zyada imagination ka nasha hai.

Aur irony dekho.

Jo log bade exams clear karte hain, unme se bahut kam log perfect streak maintain karte hain.

Unki superpower hoti hai:

"Aaj kharab gaya? Chalo kal phir baithte hain."

Bas.

Ye sunne mein heroic nahi lagta, isliye dimag ise underestimate karta hai.

Ek aur baat jo mujhe tumhari observation mein pasand aayi.

Tumne kaha:

"I know ye galat hai... still my mind cultivate it."

Bilkul. Dimag har belief ko consciously choose nahi karta. Wo repeated imagination se bhi beliefs bana leta hai. Agar tum baar baar "perfect study phase" imagine karte ho, to wo dheere dheere ek expectation ban jata hai. Phir expectation tootne par guilt aata hai.

Isliye kabhi kabhi problem discipline ki kami nahi hoti.

Problem hoti hai ki tum success ko ek continuous perfect line ke roop mein visualize karte ho, jabki actual success ek zigzag graph hota hai jo overall upar ja raha hota hai.

Perfection ka promise hota hai:

"Ek baar perfect ban jao, phir sab aasaan."

Reality ka rule hota hai:

"Har din imperfect tareeke se sahi kaam karte raho."

Sach kahun to dimag perfection isliye bhi banata hai kyunki uncertainty se uski banti nahi. "Main kab clear karunga?" ka jawab uske paas nahi hota, to wo ek fantasy create karta hai jahan control 100% hai. Kaafi efficient illusion hai. Reality ne kabhi us contract par sign nahi kiya. Humans ne bas khud hi print karke file bana li.

Aur shayad isi wajah se perseverance boring lagti hai aur perfection beautiful. Ek painting aur ek construction site mein bhi painting zyada sundar dikhti hai. Lekin building construction site se hi banti hai.