Mere kadhi chawal

Keep both things apart ..upsc cse is different...and you have to focus on studying subjects .... nothing else. And there is no escape from dukha. It is compulsory to have dukha.

सिर्फ़ ख़ूबसूरती के लिए नहीं कोई होना चाहिए कहीं बातों का भी एक बिछौना चाहिए। यूँ तो जिस्म भी ज़रूरी है मोहब्बत में, पर इश्क के पैमाने में जिस्म को खोना चाहिए। ख़ूबसूरती के मायने काफ़ी हैं ज़माने में, आँखें नहीं, तेरी बातों के लिए कोई रोना चाहिए। शक्ल, आँखें, पहनावा, जिस्म सब धोखा है, कोई इनको हटा कर किसी को दिल से पिरोना चाहिए। कब तक बंद रहते हैं तेरे होंठ मेरे होंठों से, खुलें तो कोई अफ़साना भी बयान होना चाहिए। मैं तंग आ चुका हूँ ख़ूबसूरत लोगों से, मुझे अब खुश इंसान का कोना चाहिए। जागते हैं जिसकी यादों में ये शख़्स-ए-शिनाख़्त, अब तुझे भी अपने ख़्वाबों में सोना चाहिए।                                                       – शिनाख्त 

What to do about it ? Be serious about only some things...for rest for this be non serious. That's how you became non serious but reliable.

Why not casual sexual relationship  Why not just meet, fuck and leave ? Because iske liye bhi gend mar wani pad jayegi  Time isme bhi dena hi padega  Jo main abhi nhi de skta  Aur dusra mere liye sex badi baat nhi , emotional connection badi baat hai . .. But I still crave for sexual connection ? Because of biology, it happens. Solution  Iske liye masturbation hai , ladkiyan taad lo. That's it. ... And i don't want to hurt someone since they seek long term relationships. ... Why don't just cheat women ? And enjoy sexual pleasures...even with those who finds me attractive...but I don't find them long term .. Because it goes against my spirit, my philosophy, using women just for sex ...ehhh. ...and that's why I am single and virgin.

If people are good inherently, why they hurt me ?

Why to do hard things ?  Why to achieve greatness? Even though you have potential, why to actualise it ? I want power for family but apart from it ?  ... Answer Because I can. To avoid internal corrosion  Haan, ek time main frustrate baitha hunga ki kaash main wo nhi kar paaya jo main kar skta tha.  To avoid regrets  Aur family ke liye toh karna hi hai ...power toh chahiye hi family ke thoughts change karne ke liye . Abhi thoda laziness lagegi hi. Can't do anything about it though ...still do it

Safalta ki seedhi 502 beedi Gyani se gyani bheede ho gyan ki baat Murakh se murakh bhide kai ghusa kai lat Hum hila lenge apne haath, tu saali apna rasta naap Aayenge teri hi gali main chahe jail kyun na ho jaye  Marenge teri hi gaad chahe jail kyun na ho jaye

Relationship intelligence  People could use you...there is a threat In every relationship, there is a sense of insecurity...it has to be there...you can't do anything about it. So be alone... Is it what you recommend?  No , connect with whom , those you understands you. Till some time...focus on studies..not into venture mode of finding your partner...it's not the time ... because the stakes are so high ...you could lose everything right now..as your studies, your capital. Better to do it after job, you have power then. You have risk taking capability then After that...try to find someone, ask people out , take risk, and leave them if you don't align with them. That's how you build a just heart. Have resilience to be vulnerable again to someone. Have courage to risk your feelings to someone. Mujhe koi khush insaan chahiye, shayad Swarg main hi mil payega ab. Aur bhi hain, aur time limit se kuch nhi hota ..fir mil jayenge baad main log , cse ke baad ...koi kahin bhaga nh...

Daily subah padho Main zamane ki gaand faadne ki himmat rakhta hun Main cse ki bhi bund faad dunga Itna time kaafi cheezon ki samkhne main aur khud ko samjhne main laga Hawas ki hila lo... No relationship till jobb No approaching, only chinrai Feelings about thodi control hone lagi Some people are bad, some are okay, some are better but ....You are the best monu, you are the best  Thoda boredom ke saath hi aayegi growth. Friendship zaruri hai but goal se jyada nh Bollywood ne sabka dimaag kharab kar rakha hai Kisi ko mujh par bharosa ho na ho, mujhe khud par full bharosa hai  Phone se thoda door rehkar , boredom jhel kar kaam karna hai Sirf 2 hi conditions main addmi khush reh skta hai wrt women  Pehla usse dur, dusra jab women usse pyaar kare. And take rest ...jiski bhookh hai wo usse khaakr hi puri hogi And sometimes just do nothing and leave phone... because boredom is inevitable if you want growth.

Can't do anything about dukha You can't solve the pain neither you can escape the pain Not my type so  ? ... Mujhe insecurity dedegi wo... I will be fucking insecure... Kyunki khaali dimaag shaitan ka ghar... ...nhi chahiye fir  Wo aise hi busy rehti hai  Mere liye waqt nhi nikal paati wo Toh mere liye nhi bani hai wo ... Jo mere liye waqt na nikal paaye matlab she is not interested in me  And showing no feelings towards me  ...let her focus on her career  ... Ships are safe at the harbour...but they are not mean to be stay them forever...they are built to cross the violent sea.. So lets see...where things go with muskan otherwise baithe raho kisi ke intezaar main...ya fir himmat karo cheezein karne ki Aur sirf sochne se kuch nhi hota....take the action... remember pull paar karne se nadi paar nhi hoti...kuch paar nhi hota ndi main bina utare... Agar kuch bura hota hai...toh bhi we will see.. I am not here to ignore red flags... Aur agar kuch accha hota hai...

 Mann nhi lagta logon main  Ek do dost hi h...aur bass family Mehfeelon main ab jee nhi lagta ... Kaam karo bahut saara Paisa kamao.. Taaki khud ko rule kar paao.... Aur logon ke hisaab se rule na ho pao... Especially society. ... Khair I'm happy...even kisi se baat karne ka Mann bhi nhi hota It's not im done with people...but they are not my types. Toh zaruratein puri karo ...unki responsibility samjho and have a sense of self worth 

रख ले मुझे तेरा मन हो तो ढक ले मुझे तेरा मन हो तो अगर हूँ नापसंद तो कर देना दूर एक ही बार में तेरा मन हो तो दिल के बाज़ार में लगा कीमत दिखूँगा बेशकीमती तेरा मन हो तो और न लगा दाम मेरे तेरे दिल में दिखूँगा बेज़ार तेरा मन हो तो मैं तो कुछ नहीं कहता अब तुझसे तू ही बोल कुछ मुझसे तेरा मन हो तो मैं समझता हूँ तेरा भी डर तू चल दे डर से आगे तेरा मन हो तो और तू चाहती है परखना मुझे तो बिल्कुल परख तेरा मन हो तो

I'm removing the cap of " intentionally not studying"...wrt time

there are multiple things that carry on day to day basis, even if you are preparing for cse. you can't avoid them...you can go anywhere in the world but they won't leave you.. even after clearing cse, they won't leave you ..you have to make peace with them but some says it is not possible for them, then they are little either not fully self aware or they have not aware of their limits or they have suppressed their limits  so what to do give them time, write them down and do single work with full focus and if you get bored change it. and you can also take a good rest from all of them from once in a while if you got tired...its that easy ... and it kinda works for me . as i am able to study  ..... If your approach helps you: come back to your desk regularly finish what you start (at least most of the time) not burn out every 10 days then it’s working. If instead you notice: constant task switching with little depth using “rest” as an escape feeling busy but n...

It's time to act, not to strategise anything anymore.

Don't be afraid of commiting mistakes for the sake of action  Apologise and accept the mistakes you commit Don't be silly around to just commit same mistakes again and again ....don't commit same mistake twice. And there will be lot of mistakes and you will learn a lot.. Try to reduce chances of mistakes and still it will occur and that's the human nature.