Mere kadhi chawal

I asked myself a question yesterday, where and why was I failing in the preparation? As I myself thinking that one does not fail in the exam rather one fails in the preparation of the exam  So the answer comes out as little moments  So let's explain it , what do I mean by little moments. Suppose you have a big and vast ship , and now you want to row that ship into sea but whenever you try to row it , it starts to sink ..  You think it's a problem with ship design and what not ...so you again made a ship , and then same chain of events occur. And you gain made a new ship. So the answer is not ship design rather the small holes ...tiny holes that punctured the ship. The best saying that describes it very well is "Don't use sword to kill mosquito" In my life while preparing, I too punctured with these small holes , and in response to that I change my whole plan again and again. And what are these holes ...these are small moments as boredom, mood , some household chor...

this is completely my set of ideas and if you don't align with it, it's all okay. i am not preaching here anything rather i am saying what i want to say to myself and what i personally felt while trying to prepare for upsc cse . since i have not cleared it, so i have no authority but i think this is the way that i adopted and benefits me, and also the other ways makes me anxious.  so with the disclaimer alert, i want to start this by 2 quotes  '' you don't fail in any exam rather , you fails in the preparation of exam '' '' if you don't enjoy the way during the process, i don't know about the right way, but this the wrong way surely''. first thing first , the first quote told us about the importance of preparation, the winner is not the outcome of a single day event rather its the outcome of several days which he put for that single day.  so before getting the day ceased, you have to cease your preparation . you have many obstacles wh...

I can't be loved by anyone and i accepted it with full heart. Nobody could love me. I can't able have a love life since I don't have love line. I can give love and to get reciprocated... impossible...and i accept it. Though in past i get reciprocation of love , but not how much I wanted .... Always loved less. that's why I have accepted it that people can't love me and i am not lovable. I'm exhausted. I am not writing it to get some sympathy... I am writing it because I am sad. I have a hope but it feels very tired and exhausting. I have to kill that hope too ..i have to kill that wish. Chahne ki zarurat nhi, chahne ki Chahat ko maar diya jaaye ab. It's difficult, still in my heart some love left but it's better to accept that this feeling ain't for me. There is no one left who could revert back my love ...people are not capable enough...so I left this feeling here. #haq se single